my smile appears and walls start to crumble.
My life is at a point where i don't know where to turn, yet i can only turn one way...
but thru all this, im still happy. i got everything i need. so what if everything doesn't go my way.
Um... yea i got really mad at school today cuz some ppl are really ignorant and i get mad over thier dumbass choices... i don't get why someone that's been clean for so long wud screw it all up like that???
it makes no sense to me.
But how cud i be upset for long when Mike was there? not possible. I swear, it's impossible for me to be mad at him or even be upset around him. that smile he puts on my face is so priceless... i'm so smitten by him, and i can never get enough of him. ugh. i feel so lucky to get his attention. Then i hate when ppl say that it will phase out sooner or later... cuz for some reason, i just want him in my life.. not even as a bf, just like it is.. its absolutly awesome. i have no worries.. and im happy not expecting anything out of him.. and im happy to kno that i can't get let down, cuz we're never serious in the first place. although ive decided im not gonna even try n talk to other guys, cuz im satisfied with him..i feel like i dont need anyone elses attention.
so im happy...
and i'll continue to be happy.. err, well
at least try my hardest.. cuz at times like these, its when i get 6 feet under.
but ill be okay. i promise.
goodnite darling.
but thru all this, im still happy. i got everything i need. so what if everything doesn't go my way.
Um... yea i got really mad at school today cuz some ppl are really ignorant and i get mad over thier dumbass choices... i don't get why someone that's been clean for so long wud screw it all up like that???
it makes no sense to me.
But how cud i be upset for long when Mike was there? not possible. I swear, it's impossible for me to be mad at him or even be upset around him. that smile he puts on my face is so priceless... i'm so smitten by him, and i can never get enough of him. ugh. i feel so lucky to get his attention. Then i hate when ppl say that it will phase out sooner or later... cuz for some reason, i just want him in my life.. not even as a bf, just like it is.. its absolutly awesome. i have no worries.. and im happy not expecting anything out of him.. and im happy to kno that i can't get let down, cuz we're never serious in the first place. although ive decided im not gonna even try n talk to other guys, cuz im satisfied with him..i feel like i dont need anyone elses attention.
so im happy...
and i'll continue to be happy.. err, well
at least try my hardest.. cuz at times like these, its when i get 6 feet under.
but ill be okay. i promise.
goodnite darling.