learning to trust is really hard...
when you have been fucked over hard in the past...i deal with these things everyday and i am trying to rationalize to myself that i am an idiot for being so paranoid...and i let my emotions control my thought processes way too much...i'm getting better though...i wanted to send a email to someone about stupid things and thought better of it because i realized that my thoughts that i wanted to get across were stemming from my lack of trust...if i am to grow as a person i need to get over my fear of losing people in my life...i guess that if someone is meant to be a part of my life they will be and if not i just need to accept it and move on...but is it ok to hope for something?