hmmmmmm
i'm conflicted.
hurt.
feeling just downright shitty.
but not completely.
just a bit.
it's weird for me to feel like this.
not knowing what to do.
this disgusts me completely.
i'm upset about it.
new topic?
sounds good.
i talked to dave.
about things...
that have been bugging me.
it was nice to let it out.
he comforted me.
let me know it was okay.
what a good boy!
friends...
are weird.
they can kill you...
without even meaning it.
speaking of friends.
i txted billy a little while back.
his birthday.
he's 21 now.
:)
how cool.
he was happy to hear from me.
i miss that kid.
i went to see benji.
on his day of death.
dave went too.
it was nice.
didn't stay too long.
just long enough to say hi.
i cried today.
not very much...
just a little.
everything will be fine though.
party.
i want to party.
go to a rave.
maybe even dance a little?
who knows.
i miss the parties.
so much fun.
liberating.
everyone there to have fun.
:)
it's so happy!
today's entry...
it's a little weird.
even for me.
i've been reading.
AMAZING BOOKS!
the Nightside...
i feel like i belong there...
hahahahahahaha!
a city within a city.
forbidden delights and danger...
that'd be cool.
my mom came to see me.
while i was at work.
brought me my easter gifts.
it was nice of her to do.
she misses me.
i miss her too.
but this really is for the better.
even if she can't see it.
i can feel that it is.
i couldn't be myself there.
i know that i can here.
want to research...
sorcery...
might be useful...
might not be...
just for fun...
to see what i can learn from it.
maybe nothing...
maybe a lot...
hmmmm...:)...
i'm content right now.
peaceful.
calm.
probably goin to bed soon.
it's about time i sleep today.
even if only for a few hours.
it'll be worth it.
dave's out at work...
with the car...
silly dave!
i love that man.
MAN BEAST!
he really is.
he's a large man.
big build.
silly man.
we have the best tickle fights...
...EVER!
haha!
yeah he's silly.
doesn't like his pic taken...
but that's okay.
he's a good guy.
well...
nap time.
i'm happy.
and hurting inside.
but it's okay.
PLUR
(peace, love, unity, respect)
hurt.
feeling just downright shitty.
but not completely.
just a bit.
it's weird for me to feel like this.
not knowing what to do.
this disgusts me completely.
i'm upset about it.
new topic?
sounds good.
i talked to dave.
about things...
that have been bugging me.
it was nice to let it out.
he comforted me.
let me know it was okay.
what a good boy!
friends...
are weird.
they can kill you...
without even meaning it.
speaking of friends.
i txted billy a little while back.
his birthday.
he's 21 now.
:)
how cool.
he was happy to hear from me.
i miss that kid.
i went to see benji.
on his day of death.
dave went too.
it was nice.
didn't stay too long.
just long enough to say hi.
i cried today.
not very much...
just a little.
everything will be fine though.
party.
i want to party.
go to a rave.
maybe even dance a little?
who knows.
i miss the parties.
so much fun.
liberating.
everyone there to have fun.
:)
it's so happy!
today's entry...
it's a little weird.
even for me.
i've been reading.
AMAZING BOOKS!
the Nightside...
i feel like i belong there...
hahahahahahaha!
a city within a city.
forbidden delights and danger...
that'd be cool.
my mom came to see me.
while i was at work.
brought me my easter gifts.
it was nice of her to do.
she misses me.
i miss her too.
but this really is for the better.
even if she can't see it.
i can feel that it is.
i couldn't be myself there.
i know that i can here.
want to research...
sorcery...
might be useful...
might not be...
just for fun...
to see what i can learn from it.
maybe nothing...
maybe a lot...
hmmmm...:)...
i'm content right now.
peaceful.
calm.
probably goin to bed soon.
it's about time i sleep today.
even if only for a few hours.
it'll be worth it.
dave's out at work...
with the car...
silly dave!
i love that man.
MAN BEAST!
he really is.
he's a large man.
big build.
silly man.
we have the best tickle fights...
...EVER!
haha!
yeah he's silly.
doesn't like his pic taken...
but that's okay.
he's a good guy.
well...
nap time.
i'm happy.
and hurting inside.
but it's okay.
PLUR
(peace, love, unity, respect)