Hooray...
...For the return of apathetic, emotional deadness.
How greatly I missed thee.
Fuck.
...
Hopefully it's just because I'm tired. More dreams, last night. Kinda thought those were over. Apparently I was wrong. Gahh... what am I doing? Not wanting to hurt people, and feeling no emotion do not mix well, I think.
There is one person who can make me laugh, or even smile. The strongest emotion I feel towards this person is a sense of curiousity. This is the strongest positive emotion I feel towards anyone, at the moment.
So... I could. I most definitely could.
But do I want to? If I fuck it up what happens to friendship?
Maybe I just shouldn't do anything for a while? But even then I'm probably going to hurt them. Dammit.
Hahaha... Fucking Hell.
How greatly I missed thee.
Fuck.
...
Hopefully it's just because I'm tired. More dreams, last night. Kinda thought those were over. Apparently I was wrong. Gahh... what am I doing? Not wanting to hurt people, and feeling no emotion do not mix well, I think.
There is one person who can make me laugh, or even smile. The strongest emotion I feel towards this person is a sense of curiousity. This is the strongest positive emotion I feel towards anyone, at the moment.
So... I could. I most definitely could.
But do I want to? If I fuck it up what happens to friendship?
Maybe I just shouldn't do anything for a while? But even then I'm probably going to hurt them. Dammit.
Hahaha... Fucking Hell.