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[lucis_fatum]

I don't know whether to be glad or disappointed, but... I'm finally my 16-year-old self again~! ♥

Hey Nami, let me know when you change back like, ASAP. ♥ We've got to have our little day together.

Gippal, Baralai. I know you two were kind of... going at it and it sort of seemed like I brought it all up--sorry about that but... I'd still like to have

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[walktodawn]

... oh, it was nothing. What did you want to talk about?

--... oh, Kai'. Why'd you have to bring that up?

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[lucis_fatum]

Are you sure? It hadn't really bothered me, not knowing what you were going to say. But then when Rinoa had asked if you were my boyfriend, I started to wonder what exactly it was. You've noticed that Sora's been acting weird lately, and... it sort of makes me wonder... does he even really care about us the way he did before? And... that leads me to think about... you and I. Like, how would things be between us if Sora hadn't been around. Sure, if it wasn't for him, you'd probably still hate me or something, but... if that was all he gave us... where would we be?

I was... talking to a friend. Misa. She was telling me about her and someone else killed criminals to make the world a better place. I told her that just because criminals were bad, that it didn't justify their deaths. But... it reminded me of the Organization, because in the end... was what they wanted really all that bad?

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[walktodawn]

... I never hated you, I just didn't know how to trust you when I was younger. If Sora hadn't been around, I think I would've met you on the beach, told you off, and then... disappeared. So I guess... we would've been nowhere.

Wanting a heart, no. It's not bad at all. Killing others to make Kingdom Hearts, to somehow gain their hearts? Very bad. ... of course, I... never thought it was too bad, but if you've got a job to do that no one else can, then you've got to do it. I never wanted to kill any of them. I never even believed in the whole 'Nobodies-don't-have-a-heart' thing.

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[lucis_fatum]

So... that would mean that if something were to happen between us, like... a relationship more than friendship, we would actually have Sora to thank for it. N-not that I'm saying there would be something happening between us, but if there were to be. Just... hypothetically.

You didn't? ... When I was there... I watched the ones that came around to check on me, and... they acted like normal people. Well, as normal as you can be when you're holding someone hostage. But, that one... Saix, I think his name was, he... I felt really bad for him. I still do, actually, because... what if there had actually been some other way to get their hearts without having to kill others? If there was, they were all just... misguided.

... I'm sorry, I should probably stop thinking about it so much. What's in the past is in the past, right?

[faythlessprayer]

Don't worry about it. It wasn't your fault. Things always seem to operate this way.

As for your question, don't worry. I'll tell you all about it when I'm not in such a horrible mood over-thinking things like I normally do.

[lucis_fatum]

It just seemed like it was. If I hadn't asked, you two wouldn't have argued about it. But I know how 'best friends' work. I'm used to it by now, really.

All right, I'm patient enough.

[keybladersora]

Motives? About the Organization?

[lucis_fatum]

Yeah, I've been thinking about it and... why? I mean, was what they wanted really that bad?

...It's nice to finally talk to you again, Sora. I missed you.

[keybladersora]

When you look back on it... Demyx and Axel no, they didn't deserve what happened to them. But Kairi, just because something bad happened to you, does that mean you should inflict that on everyone else? The original members of the group willingly turned themselves and others into Heartless and Nobodies.

They were still turning people into heartless then freeing the hearts to create Kingdom Hearts. I can understand that some of them truly wanted to find their own hearts. But at the sacrifice of so many people? Even now, Roxas and Demyx are falling in love. So a heart is not unreplaceable.

I... but I saw you just before I got here... a few hours at least.... I don't understand this place...

[lucis_fatum]

... I see. So just certain ones went to the extremes with their whole goal and did more than was necessary, right? But... if there were members that didn't deserve to... die then why... why did you do it?

And it's funny that you should bring Demyx up into this--it was his girlfriend who got me thinking about all of this. Back in her world, she and a friend were killing criminals, and I asked her if just because they were criminals justified them being killed. It... made me think of the Organization.

It is a little weird, definitely. I've been here for almost two months now, and I'm still confused by some things.

[musicnotez]

...I'm guessing they finished us off because we were evil, right?

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[lucis_fatum]

I... can't say for sure. Both Sora and Riku have their different views on the situation. But in the end, they did it all because it was their job. I still don't agree with that in the least, but you can't change someone's opinions about something. Especially something like this.

I'm sorry that it had to happen. I really am. ...You're Demyx, right?

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[musicnotez]

Yeah, I'm Demyx.

You've got nothing to be sorry for, I don't hold anything against you. Just Sora really.

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[lucis_fatum]

I hope you're taking good care of Misa. ♥

I still feel awful about it, though. But... even though you feel that way about Sora, you don't mind being friends, do you? I'd hate for something he did to come between me and a possible good friend, you know? ♥

[gold_keyblade]

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she's so trying to convince herself that his comment has nothing to do with her question to Riku.

[lucis_fatum]

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Don't tell me you miss me being older, hm~? ♥

illusions = RUINED

[gold_keyblade]

It is far, far too late to be questioning motives, Kairi. The damage is done.

Kairi = HEARTBROKEN. 'cept not.

[lucis_fatum]

... I know, but I still can't help but wonder.