May 09, 2006 13:05
It is funny how a good thing sometimes just isn't enough. That shadow of doubt, the curiosity for that something that is off limits. The temptation. I wish I could have both. You know, have your cake and eat it too. Things aren't so simple though...there are a lot of factors that must be taken into account. I am torn right now. I keep wondering why I am not satisfied with the way things are. We only have one life to live, why not make the best of it? That is some dangerous thinking though. This requires patience, time to figure it all out. I don't want to make a wrong move and loose what I have. Those who know me best know that I can't stand to wait. Patience is a virtue I lack.
To keep my mind off of my current predicament I cleaned and reorganized my apartment yesterday. The living room is set up differently now, it looks more spacious and neater. Every few months I have to change things up and reorganize my place. It is a nice change. Cleaning helps me clear my head.