Disappearing
I'm doing it again. I'm sorry friends, I really don't mean to. I tell myself it's annual, but i've never really checked... it could be more frequent. I hope it isn't. But it's that time for me to disappear.
Against all my efforts, I always end up here. I just want to be alone. I don't want to see friends or family and I want to run away. i don't want to pick up the phone or even see a familiar face. I'm not depressed though. I wish I could understand. During these times, I can only find comfort in strangers.
Must be a screwed up artist thing, because a lot of kids at the artschool did this.
I don't want to be like this. Almost positive that I could never get married on account of my mood swings and my close-o-phobia. If i spend more than 24 hours straight with anyone, I begin to shut down.
Time to shut down.
Against all my efforts, I always end up here. I just want to be alone. I don't want to see friends or family and I want to run away. i don't want to pick up the phone or even see a familiar face. I'm not depressed though. I wish I could understand. During these times, I can only find comfort in strangers.
Must be a screwed up artist thing, because a lot of kids at the artschool did this.
I don't want to be like this. Almost positive that I could never get married on account of my mood swings and my close-o-phobia. If i spend more than 24 hours straight with anyone, I begin to shut down.
Time to shut down.