My mindless self indulgence...whatever that might mean
I have decided I must update this shit more often that I used to. I am working on updating atleast once a day...how does that sound to you children?
I found out tonight that I am officially banned from entering Dave's apartment. Yes! You guessed it! I am not aloud to step foot in the place cause Dave's mom told Matt and Dave that I am not aloud back cause of what I did to Matt's leg. How she found out and how she knew who I was is behond me! But I mean it really sucks cause I am already decaying mentally from the whole thing...I feel like a fuckin' mean person. I didn't mean to hurt anyone...never in my wildest dreams would I ever think bout hurting anyone like that, especially on purpose.
My day was nice but my night has turned into another night of no sleep and feeling real shitty bout myself. I am going to have to tell my psychiatrist that I am still having a horrid time trying to sleep. I have basically become an insomniac since we got out of school for our "Winter Break". I have been getting up between 8am and 1.30pm this whole break and going to bed at like 4am. I have not a clue why this is...maybe I need my medication dosage bumped up some more? I don't know. All I know is that this no sleep thing is going to take a toll on my body sooner or later. And now NO ONE will talk to me online...you would think I'm a piece of really smelly dog shit or something the way people wont talk to me. So I have nothing better to do but wiping all the smudge marks, on the computer screen, off.
I have to baby sit again tomarrow! YaY for me I guess. At least I am getting money for it.
FUCK YOU MTV!!! You have now made me even more sad than I already am by putting Evanescence's "My Immortal" music video on. Great way to make my cry!
I found out tonight that I am officially banned from entering Dave's apartment. Yes! You guessed it! I am not aloud to step foot in the place cause Dave's mom told Matt and Dave that I am not aloud back cause of what I did to Matt's leg. How she found out and how she knew who I was is behond me! But I mean it really sucks cause I am already decaying mentally from the whole thing...I feel like a fuckin' mean person. I didn't mean to hurt anyone...never in my wildest dreams would I ever think bout hurting anyone like that, especially on purpose.
My day was nice but my night has turned into another night of no sleep and feeling real shitty bout myself. I am going to have to tell my psychiatrist that I am still having a horrid time trying to sleep. I have basically become an insomniac since we got out of school for our "Winter Break". I have been getting up between 8am and 1.30pm this whole break and going to bed at like 4am. I have not a clue why this is...maybe I need my medication dosage bumped up some more? I don't know. All I know is that this no sleep thing is going to take a toll on my body sooner or later. And now NO ONE will talk to me online...you would think I'm a piece of really smelly dog shit or something the way people wont talk to me. So I have nothing better to do but wiping all the smudge marks, on the computer screen, off.
I have to baby sit again tomarrow! YaY for me I guess. At least I am getting money for it.
FUCK YOU MTV!!! You have now made me even more sad than I already am by putting Evanescence's "My Immortal" music video on. Great way to make my cry!