Drable, Jeremy/Damon
He is 16 now.
And staying 16 forever is a grim, grim prospect that Jeremy has no other choice but to entertain.He feels depressed and hopeless,with no way out of an impossible situation.No one should have to choose between love and their own soul but that is exactly what he is faced with.Jeremy doesn't know what to do.
On one of his better days,before- before all of this,before giving himself the luxury of daring to imagine he too was allowed to have a happily ever after,he would've sat and drown something.Most probably some kind of a monster,but those days are long past,now he doesn't draw monsters,now he fucks them,loves them.And that last is what hurts him so much.The realization that he's going to have to forgo his own soul if he wants to retain the last bit of his pathetic life that still makes him feel something,anything.
Or at least that's what he tells himself,because if he is honest,it's clear Jeremy actually loves Damon Salvatore and what does that says about him?Loving a monster, doesn't that mean you have to be a monster yourself?Jeremy prefers not to have the answer to his question.After all ignorance is bliss,isn't it.
What is truly terrifying is, perhaps, the knowledge that when night comes he'll be dieing,trusting Damon to bring him back.And knowing Damon he won't make it easy for him either,it was a moment of weakness Damon asked him for permission to turn him into a vampire,right after he found out a century and a half was wasted on somebody who didn't give a shit about him, after his brother's betrayal(and doesn't Jeremy know how that last one feels like,)but now he will be on the top of his game, meaning the teenager will actually have to ask to be killed.And Jeremy will beg if he has to,another thing he is sure of.
And how sick is that?
Jeremy can't help but think he may be a fail-save for Damon.Someone who will always be there for him if the elder Salvatore decides he wants some company.Jeremy consoles himself with the fact that Damon hates being alone.
Later that evening, when Jeremy Gilbert stands in front of the mirror, drinking Elena's pills,Damon leaning on the doorway, arms crossed, looking at his reflection,eyes perfectly empty,lips curled in a smirk,Jeremy is sure he is getting his ever after,but will it be a happy one?