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I find it unusual to analyse myself like this but thena gain i have always done it os it doesn't come as a particular suprise, apparentlt my core beliefs let me down when it comes to my own feelings of value, and of how critical i am of others and myself, and there's another area i can't remember. anyway, the importnat thing is the analysis, well not to any of you but to me, not the reasons behind the analysis.
I find myself watning something. and wanting it not only because it would be a nice thing to be able to have (if one can have such a thing for one's self) but because i do not, and cannot have it. this is unfair, because in order to have this it would mean other people not having it which goes against my own morals. but i do find myself tempted, and very tempted. anyone with half a brain has probably worked out what is happening here, and because i'm the predictable sod i am i know exactly what i'm going to do about it too, nothing, except confess i suppose. at least then it gives everyone a chance of removing certain objects from the reach of the child, because we all know he does not know what is best for himself.
I must remove temptation.
meanwhile i find quietly hilarious a recently discovered similarity between jeff's new boy and jeff's ex. purely superficial of course and having no bearing on who either of them are as people but still amusing.
opera was enjoyable. although spending half an hour combing the botanical gardens for sarah was not as fun as one might think.
I find myself watning something. and wanting it not only because it would be a nice thing to be able to have (if one can have such a thing for one's self) but because i do not, and cannot have it. this is unfair, because in order to have this it would mean other people not having it which goes against my own morals. but i do find myself tempted, and very tempted. anyone with half a brain has probably worked out what is happening here, and because i'm the predictable sod i am i know exactly what i'm going to do about it too, nothing, except confess i suppose. at least then it gives everyone a chance of removing certain objects from the reach of the child, because we all know he does not know what is best for himself.
I must remove temptation.
meanwhile i find quietly hilarious a recently discovered similarity between jeff's new boy and jeff's ex. purely superficial of course and having no bearing on who either of them are as people but still amusing.
opera was enjoyable. although spending half an hour combing the botanical gardens for sarah was not as fun as one might think.