I feel the need to update...
So today started off shitty as hell.
I'm still sick from the weekend.
It sucks; a lot.
For those of you who haven't heard I'm not with Leo anymore, for who knows how long.
Maybe perminently.
I went to go and get my things from his house today.
That sucked the most.
Worse because my mom had to watch me cry the entire ride home, and sit in the akward silence.
For 40 minutes.
Then we (Leo and I)had a mini fight only before I left to go hang out with Mandy.
I'm glad I went out.
I needed to get my mind off of the days events.
I needed to be somewhere that didn't remind me of us.
I had fun.
It was nice to be out and hear good music and dance.
I was happy.
For the first time in a week.
I forgot how beautiful sunsets really are.
God the sunset at Dock at the Bay was incredible.
I wish I had thought to bring my camera.
Although while looking at the amazing view, I couldn't help but think I should be sharing this with him.
How could I have fucked up so bad?
Where was my verbal editor?
I hate that I've hurt him.
And in turn hurt myself by losing him.
It was really hard to watch all the couples tonight.
It seems like the only songs I've heard since Sunday have been love songs.
That fucking blows; what a cosmic slap in the face.
God this is one long ass entry.
But in all actuality it's not all that long.
Just looks that way.
I'm going, more later.
I'm still sick from the weekend.
It sucks; a lot.
For those of you who haven't heard I'm not with Leo anymore, for who knows how long.
Maybe perminently.
I went to go and get my things from his house today.
That sucked the most.
Worse because my mom had to watch me cry the entire ride home, and sit in the akward silence.
For 40 minutes.
Then we (Leo and I)had a mini fight only before I left to go hang out with Mandy.
I'm glad I went out.
I needed to get my mind off of the days events.
I needed to be somewhere that didn't remind me of us.
I had fun.
It was nice to be out and hear good music and dance.
I was happy.
For the first time in a week.
I forgot how beautiful sunsets really are.
God the sunset at Dock at the Bay was incredible.
I wish I had thought to bring my camera.
Although while looking at the amazing view, I couldn't help but think I should be sharing this with him.
How could I have fucked up so bad?
Where was my verbal editor?
I hate that I've hurt him.
And in turn hurt myself by losing him.
It was really hard to watch all the couples tonight.
It seems like the only songs I've heard since Sunday have been love songs.
That fucking blows; what a cosmic slap in the face.
God this is one long ass entry.
But in all actuality it's not all that long.
Just looks that way.
I'm going, more later.