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Mar 28, 2003 17:45

i've told myself to stop being so sad for no reason.
and it just doesn't work.
i think the mmdg will cheer me up tonight.
i hope John is dancing.

my own sister wouldn't hug me today. she hasn't hugged me in 2 weeks and once hit me for attempting to hug her.
my own sister who shares my blood and looks exactly like me [i'm telling you]--
jesus. i walked to health class with my teeth clenched as i tried not to cry, even though i already had a lump in my throat and my ears were tingling...in situations like those when your own loved ones refuse you its really difficult to keep yourself together--but i see through it. shes trying to let go because shes going to college and doesnt want to feel any pain.
and i try to tell her...that pain is inevitable.
always inevitable.

always inevitable...
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