LOG: Lavi, Hisoka, and ?? [[Wandering Thoughts - Complete]]

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Who: Lavi, Hisoka, possibly others joining later
When: Current, nighttime.
Where: Outside wherever Lavi is staying now.
Summary: Lavi wanders outside, still unaware of what is going on around him. Hisoka finds him and discovers a bit of what's going on inside his mind.
Rating: PG-13

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Hisoka was walking back from Chichiri's apartment, thoroughly disturbed by what the Malnosso had done to Watari. It wasn't right, first off, that they should be able to hurt a Shinigami... but more than that, Watari was always so cheerful and bubbly that it was disturbingly like seeing a kicked puppy.

With a sigh, he put his hands in his pockets and kept walking, then blinked and looked up when he sensed someone walking towards him. Normally he could tell when people were nearby because he always got some sort of sense of their emotions, but this time... it was like a black hole.

He frowned and stopped walking. The man appeared to be sleepwalking... and outside in this place, that couldn't be safe at all. "Hey. You. Can you hear me?"

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Lavi may have heard the other man's call, but did not respond. He continued to walk in a straight line, his blank gaze fixed somewhere on the path ahead of him.

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Hisoka frowned. He had to stop the man before he hurt himself, but... touching him would send his empathy wild.

"Damn it," he muttered.

He braced himself and reached out, letting Lavi walk right into his grasp.

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If Hisoka could see past the barrier that Lavi had erected to protect himself, he would find a confusing turmoil of emotions, images, and memories.

Another Lavi, this one with a dark tattoo-like mark spreading across his face, attacked and killed his friends, one by one. Allen, Lenalee, Yuu, Daisya... they all fell under his knife while Lavi screamed and struggled, forced to watch. The dark Lavi turned and laughed, licking the knife of the blood...

But no no no, now the memory shifts... now he watches his own hands do the killing, hears his own screams from the outside, feels both detachment and glee as he plunges the dagger into Allen's heart, slices across Lenalee's throat, slashes open Yuu's abdomen...

It's not me, it's not me, it's not me... but it is, the memories don't lie... do they?

Unable to deal with the conflicting, horrific memories, Lavi has locked his mind away, safe, untouchable.

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Hisoka let go abruptly and staggered back, putting his hands to his head. He hadn't expected an onslaught like that, but he probably should have been aware that something would happen.

He looked back up at Lavi and frowned. "The Malnosso?" he wondered out loud.

Slowly, he dropped his hands and took a step forward, taking care not to touch him again. "Hey," he said, his voice low. "Look at me. I've seen what's in your mind, and I know what you've done. If you stay that way for too long, you might be stuck."