Discovery [7]
Title: Discovery
Author: lucasluvs
Beta: hannahrerlouise
Pairing: Joe/Nick
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Not mine and never will be
Summary: The need of a son, a brother and an idol, to find himself. A journey of discovery
PO Box 521
Dallas, TX 75247
03/08/10
Nicky
Well I’ve arrived! After an annoyingly long flight full of stinky old men and a little boy who thought it was fun to kick the back of my seat the whole way there. I’m telling you Nicky, I was so tempted to throw him out of the emergency door, I’m sure he would have been capable of swimming. I don’t remember what the in flight movie was, it was that good (can you hear the sarcasm? Think I’m turning into you).
So anyway, we finally landed (I didn’t chuck the kid off - unfortunately) and guess what - it’s raining! I was born in Arizona; I don’t DO rain. Go to get my bag - and the handle broke. Today is really not my day.
Anyway so then I’m going through the airport and there’s suddenly a scream and I see this girl coming at me with a bunch behind her. Luckily a man walked in front of me before they got very far and I hid behind a tree - total James Bond moment, it was awesome.
I just sounded like Kev didn’t I?
Caught a cab, sorry ‘taxi’, to the bed and breakfast I’m staying at. I want the chance to explore properly, not just see the surface like we usually do. What’s the point in going to all these different countries if we never get to experience them properly? Never get to see the countryside and lie in the grass by a river, listen to the song within the flow of the water, the swell over the stones, as it rushes past in it’s journey to the sea. The different cultures that we miss, how people’s accents and beliefs, their dreams, change as you leave behind the roar of the city. I want that Nick. I want to know.
Are we so different from everyone else? And if we are, why? What defines us? As a family, as part of a nation of ever changing elements. There is so much more out there than just us, just you and me. I need to find it. And my hope is that on the way I’ll find myself. What do you think?
Am I just being a silly idealistic child?
I hope not. I really do.
I don’t want this heartache to be for nothing.
I love you baby boy.
My light.
Joe
xx