Not such a bad day...
So its been confirmed HUNKTY DUNKY wants me... but hes a cocky asshole... please cocky cause so fat ugly chick who loses to a 40 yearold likes you. If thats not pathetic I dont know what is, well other than me the last few days over HUNKY DUNKY. FYI he did stalk me again today, please not interested... just go by the damn ring.. ha ha. Im so irratated with him, I cant even continue about him. Im sure Aper will be happy to here that!
I have to give big props to Lump lumps hands today... he did rubb my back and take care of me. Even risked his life with with BIG B to come take care of my back strains before I went to bed... she knocked on the door... HOLY SHIT that was funny... "Are you ready??" If thats not amusing, I dont know what is.
Boo and I are having deep email convos... we will see how things turn out.
Aper was down today, I really wanted to cheer her up... I dont know if I did any good. But I really pray I did...and I dont pray for just anything. In fact I pray for very little.... I feel so bad for her... life is tough now. Shes so young and so sweet... I cant understand her insecurites, shes an amazing young women and shes got the world in front of her. Im on a personal mission to open her eyes up to who and what she really is... I NEVER FAIL!!!!
I missing the boy, ALOT. I hate that Im always so lost without him. But he dose truly mean the world to me. Its just that our worlds never seem to be on the same axis. I think Im just destined to never have a wedding or babies... well Im sure I wll have it... just wish it would come sooner.
Work was good... Brian really gave me alot of duties and is really trusting me. He left me the whole bin to do....knowing the DM was coming in tomorrow... he could get alot of shit if I didnt do it perfect... holy pressure. I guess I will know tomorrow if I fucked up or not... lets hope I didnt. Work was also good cause I think Josh the stock boy(one of them) has a crush on me. He came and sat next to me and chatted and hes constanly picking on me. Its sad that I have no interest in him at all... but he is a really sweet guy... and kinda of Galieth like... HMMM maybe for Aper... lets work the magic. Also the other stock boys were chatting with me too, it was fun. I love to flirt... although part of me feels guilty for it. Oh and Ray the ICS mgr. was really sweet and told me I looked really good today... and after last Thursday, trust me I needed the boost. Oh and Cassandra was really nice to me today, and kept telling me how funny I am... hmm I wonder what shes up too... maybe shes figured out I will be her Manager in no time... better start kissing ass early. Its so hard being successfull.... not really.
Oh and Im so glad to be ragging the emotions have settled. Which is nice cause they were irratating even me... thanks for dealing with me Aper.
OH YEAH YEAH - this is important. Aper, Steph, and I all joked around tonight. It was really nice, cause some days I feel like Steph really hates me. I know were very different and we definetly have very opposite beliefs and views on life... but I really think shes great and cracks me up... holy girl comes up with some stuff. I was really happy for tonight... I hope it can continue...time will tell.
Well off to bed... gonna sleep... should get up for psych..but this working is really kicking my ass... I have to promise to start attending psych next week... night night...until I rant on tomorrow... I really dig this journal thing... I totally get alot of things off my chest... thank god for Aper... yet another wonderful thing shes done for me.