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abd so i decided that this shall be my rant journal.
rofl.
im hoping that by posting, i will feel better. although i dont know what the hell is wrong with me.
these few days. i feel that ive changed, unknowningly.
i cant laugh that much.
i cant fangirl that much.
it just seems ;like, my usual self has died?
or is this my true self, so dead.
maybe im just tired of putting up a fake mask?
but i dont know whether i have ever put uo a mask before.
even cheryl has noticed the change inme.
maybe its becuse we sit tgt, thats why she noticed my change.
she commented about how im not laughing that hard at the boys jokes anymore, how i can stop laughing so easily.
i made up a stupid excuse about how ive concerntrated too much on the task at hand, colouring.
but the truth is that i sont know why i can stop laughing so easily.
i didnt use to e like that.
i would laugh at the boys jokes till i peng.
but why, it changed already?
last pe lesson, i think i heard beaunice say that she hates me.
i seriously dont know whether i heard right.
i really wish that i asked her then. whetheri heard her correctly.
maybe my change is because ive been going hiome straight after school everyday?
then i wont bond with my friends and all the stuff.
but then they also go home.
aish, idk.
i dont like this change in me.
i have headaches all day?
even when i sleep, i cant sleep deeply.
once i wake, i take a long time to get back to sleep.
what is happening to me?
i dont want to be like this.
why am i like this?
hais.
rofl.
im hoping that by posting, i will feel better. although i dont know what the hell is wrong with me.
these few days. i feel that ive changed, unknowningly.
i cant laugh that much.
i cant fangirl that much.
it just seems ;like, my usual self has died?
or is this my true self, so dead.
maybe im just tired of putting up a fake mask?
but i dont know whether i have ever put uo a mask before.
even cheryl has noticed the change inme.
maybe its becuse we sit tgt, thats why she noticed my change.
she commented about how im not laughing that hard at the boys jokes anymore, how i can stop laughing so easily.
i made up a stupid excuse about how ive concerntrated too much on the task at hand, colouring.
but the truth is that i sont know why i can stop laughing so easily.
i didnt use to e like that.
i would laugh at the boys jokes till i peng.
but why, it changed already?
last pe lesson, i think i heard beaunice say that she hates me.
i seriously dont know whether i heard right.
i really wish that i asked her then. whetheri heard her correctly.
maybe my change is because ive been going hiome straight after school everyday?
then i wont bond with my friends and all the stuff.
but then they also go home.
aish, idk.
i dont like this change in me.
i have headaches all day?
even when i sleep, i cant sleep deeply.
once i wake, i take a long time to get back to sleep.
what is happening to me?
i dont want to be like this.
why am i like this?
hais.