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lately having really bad times at work.. so discouraged. then no mood to start my assignment..
fruitful london trip;) but process and after-trip was bad=(
after i got back, fell sick.. nauseous on the way back. started coughing. and diarrhoea today.
but..... guess what.. i still went klunch with caryn this afternoon=p
feel guilty now though.. could have used the time to start on assignment due next fri. but i have to complete it earlier to go zurich..
trying to explain the feelings to myself.
what is that feeling when i don't hear from you.
what is that stray thought.
why are our guan xi now so bu qing bu chu.
why you don't seem to have any change.
why feel like i'm the only trying one. or trying harder. when i'm sad.
why can still end up indirectly try to ask you out and get "turned down".
why you can not meet me and r&r at home when i asked you.
if you didn't come the night before i left for london, i might have been determined to turn you away for the rest of the time.
and i know it happened partly because i allowed you to come. gave us another chance.
still don't see myself on priority list.
you don't seem to need me.
your life looks like a rainbow now.
why am i as usual stupidly always putting plans on hand, delaying, waiting, hoping to hear from you for supper, for mj or whatsoever.
but either no news, disappointment, don't get it, have your own plans or whatsoever.
feel.. .............
don't simple tell me this is not true. because you and things around make me feel this way!
after class just now.. turned zhichao down for supper. hungry. bought a bun. strolled home.
saw them at the park. awkwardness. can't say hi to ben.. but nevermind.. good friend will understand..
can't wait to give karen (3years old) a pink princess story book i bought for her from buckingham palace souvenir shop=)
hope my new cargo bag arrives soon! on mon=)
argh still dann angry.. long story
just now met a nasty 'customer officer' at the tampines mrt control station. kns. curse and swear her man. threw the money at her. argh. ROARS
hope missy feels better soon>_< poor girl.. sigh
girl you deserve better. why forgive him!!>_< sigh hope he will change..
fruitful london trip;) but process and after-trip was bad=(
after i got back, fell sick.. nauseous on the way back. started coughing. and diarrhoea today.
but..... guess what.. i still went klunch with caryn this afternoon=p
feel guilty now though.. could have used the time to start on assignment due next fri. but i have to complete it earlier to go zurich..
trying to explain the feelings to myself.
what is that feeling when i don't hear from you.
what is that stray thought.
why are our guan xi now so bu qing bu chu.
why you don't seem to have any change.
why feel like i'm the only trying one. or trying harder. when i'm sad.
why can still end up indirectly try to ask you out and get "turned down".
why you can not meet me and r&r at home when i asked you.
if you didn't come the night before i left for london, i might have been determined to turn you away for the rest of the time.
and i know it happened partly because i allowed you to come. gave us another chance.
still don't see myself on priority list.
you don't seem to need me.
your life looks like a rainbow now.
why am i as usual stupidly always putting plans on hand, delaying, waiting, hoping to hear from you for supper, for mj or whatsoever.
but either no news, disappointment, don't get it, have your own plans or whatsoever.
feel.. .............
don't simple tell me this is not true. because you and things around make me feel this way!
after class just now.. turned zhichao down for supper. hungry. bought a bun. strolled home.
saw them at the park. awkwardness. can't say hi to ben.. but nevermind.. good friend will understand..
can't wait to give karen (3years old) a pink princess story book i bought for her from buckingham palace souvenir shop=)
hope my new cargo bag arrives soon! on mon=)
argh still dann angry.. long story
just now met a nasty 'customer officer' at the tampines mrt control station. kns. curse and swear her man. threw the money at her. argh. ROARS
hope missy feels better soon>_< poor girl.. sigh
girl you deserve better. why forgive him!!>_< sigh hope he will change..