Frustration
You know sometimes I feel like I get no help at all. Oh sure, the boys do help a lot. But sometimes I feel like I'm by myself in all this.
Meaghan is a good example. I want her to try new things. Not just food. The playground is a good example. She'd never really been to one. And of course she freaked out because of all the new stuff. She didn't know how to process the new experiences because her life is so rigid. Junior won't take her for walks, and Chris hasn't in ages. I'm the only one who's taken her anywhere in the last few months. She goes outside to play with us sometimes 3-4 times a day. But it's always the same thing. She runs around, plays with the rocks...and waves at the cars.
Neither of the boys read to her. Granted she has a habit of tearing pages and books right out of your hands, but still. I try to but I don't really get to spend much time with her right now because of work. She might get one story at bedtime.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who really cares about her. I know I'm wrong, they love her just as much as I do. But Junior will sit on the computer all day and only give her the minimum attention he has to. I've only seen him get down on the floor and actually play with her a handful of times. Usually it's the computer all day.
Today is really trying my patience. I would have loved to be able to sleep in an hour. I would have loved to be able to get a shower this morning. Not gonna happen. Junior went out to a neighbor's last night and had a few and watched the fight. And now he's just this big lump on the couch. So, no help there.
I have laundry to do, dishes [which I just finished], have to make a batch of cookies for a co-worker's birthday, take care of Meaghan, and try and get some of the cleaning done around here.
Frustrated does not even cover it.
Meaghan is a good example. I want her to try new things. Not just food. The playground is a good example. She'd never really been to one. And of course she freaked out because of all the new stuff. She didn't know how to process the new experiences because her life is so rigid. Junior won't take her for walks, and Chris hasn't in ages. I'm the only one who's taken her anywhere in the last few months. She goes outside to play with us sometimes 3-4 times a day. But it's always the same thing. She runs around, plays with the rocks...and waves at the cars.
Neither of the boys read to her. Granted she has a habit of tearing pages and books right out of your hands, but still. I try to but I don't really get to spend much time with her right now because of work. She might get one story at bedtime.
Sometimes I feel like I'm the only one who really cares about her. I know I'm wrong, they love her just as much as I do. But Junior will sit on the computer all day and only give her the minimum attention he has to. I've only seen him get down on the floor and actually play with her a handful of times. Usually it's the computer all day.
Today is really trying my patience. I would have loved to be able to sleep in an hour. I would have loved to be able to get a shower this morning. Not gonna happen. Junior went out to a neighbor's last night and had a few and watched the fight. And now he's just this big lump on the couch. So, no help there.
I have laundry to do, dishes [which I just finished], have to make a batch of cookies for a co-worker's birthday, take care of Meaghan, and try and get some of the cleaning done around here.
Frustrated does not even cover it.