greaatt days
I love how things can go from great one day, to horrible the next.
Allow me to explain.
So, Me and Steven were going out in the begining of the year. A couple of days after my birthday, we stopped talking, faded out. And we both went our seperate ways. I went to talk to Andy Cab, and Steven went to Abby. A couple of days before thanksgiving break, Steven and I started talking again. We hadnt for a while. litterally, since my birthday. I think, that the break we had was worth it. It made both of us realize how we really felt about each other. So, when we go back to school from thanksgiving break Steven and I are getting close, like we were before. On tuesday, he wanted me to sneak off campus and go out to eat with him, but I got freaked out, and changed my mind. so, I promised him I'd go off campus with him on wensday. We talked tuesday night Via aim, and he told me to go with Kyle to the spot in the morning. So I went. And Steven was LAGGING. When the bell rang to go to class, I left. I thought to myself, "i'll just text him or something" but I got too lazy, so I didnt. so, i went along my way. when 5th period finished, I walked to where we meet. and he wasn't there. so, I went with Dante. By the end of lunch I was walking with Naughton, and Mike. and we see Stevens friend James walking by. and Naughton asks James about Steven.
Then Naughton told me this:
"Steven and Derek got arresteed."
I turned pale. And I asked him why. He said something about coke, but I don't really remember what exactly he said, I was having a heart attack.
So, I went to 7th period. I texted Gus, and Paul. My little therapists. My friend Alyssa asked if I felt okay. And I told her exactly what I heard. and she tells me this:
"Derek overdosed on coke."
My immidiate reaction is then why is steven in trouble.
So, 8th period came along. and I could feel myself getting more and more scared. And I could also see that Naughton felt really bad.
When I got home, I took a bath to relax. I felt a little bit better. But I texted Kyle. to know what really happened. He told me:
"Derek Od'd on coke, and Steven got caught with weed"
So, I text paul and ask him about how much trouble steven would be in for weed. He told me not to worry, that he'll be fine. so, i went to bed but I couldnt sleep. Just lay there and think, and feel the cold air creeping up my feet.
so, Thursday, all I could think about was Steven Steven Steven. At lunch, I asked Ryan what happend. I'm pretty sure he was annoyed of the question, and Im pretty sure everyone had asked him. And he told me that steven had been sent to Alternative for 30 school days. I won't see him at school, until like, the begining of feburary, or something. But I'm willing to see him, outside of school. Sneak out, or do whatever I need to do.
Today, In 5th period, someone said that Dereks parents were going to sue steven for "attempted murder" I think that fag was making it up from the top of his head. because i told him exactly what I thought.
the convo. consisted of this
-"dereks parents are going to try to sue steven because steven gave him the coke"
-"why?"
-"because steven gave him the coke, and dereks never done drugs before."
-"thats bull fucking shit, I remember on the first day of school, Jeff took me to meet him because I said he was cute, and he was talking about his dad breaking his pipe, and that he had opium(sp?)"
-"......."
-"It's true, ask jeff. and either way, steven knows I hate when he does things other than weed. he wouldnt even have it if i was going to go to lunch with him that way."
I still have no idea what's going to happen.
I just wish I could talk to steven, and tell him everything i've felt these days. I've just felt empty. and shitty, and wishing i could do something to help him. I can only hope for the best. But this week made me realize how I really ffeeel about him.
I really hope he's okay. i wanna talk to him so bad.
I hope dereks okay, too.
Idunno, life can be shitty.
but it goes on.
I cannot wait until the day I get to touch his hand again.
I'm sorry this is so long. It's just what Ive been thinking. and I made everything into really brief convos, and thoughts so that you wouldnt have to read too much.
i need advice, you got any?
leave the comment.
Allow me to explain.
So, Me and Steven were going out in the begining of the year. A couple of days after my birthday, we stopped talking, faded out. And we both went our seperate ways. I went to talk to Andy Cab, and Steven went to Abby. A couple of days before thanksgiving break, Steven and I started talking again. We hadnt for a while. litterally, since my birthday. I think, that the break we had was worth it. It made both of us realize how we really felt about each other. So, when we go back to school from thanksgiving break Steven and I are getting close, like we were before. On tuesday, he wanted me to sneak off campus and go out to eat with him, but I got freaked out, and changed my mind. so, I promised him I'd go off campus with him on wensday. We talked tuesday night Via aim, and he told me to go with Kyle to the spot in the morning. So I went. And Steven was LAGGING. When the bell rang to go to class, I left. I thought to myself, "i'll just text him or something" but I got too lazy, so I didnt. so, i went along my way. when 5th period finished, I walked to where we meet. and he wasn't there. so, I went with Dante. By the end of lunch I was walking with Naughton, and Mike. and we see Stevens friend James walking by. and Naughton asks James about Steven.
Then Naughton told me this:
"Steven and Derek got arresteed."
I turned pale. And I asked him why. He said something about coke, but I don't really remember what exactly he said, I was having a heart attack.
So, I went to 7th period. I texted Gus, and Paul. My little therapists. My friend Alyssa asked if I felt okay. And I told her exactly what I heard. and she tells me this:
"Derek overdosed on coke."
My immidiate reaction is then why is steven in trouble.
So, 8th period came along. and I could feel myself getting more and more scared. And I could also see that Naughton felt really bad.
When I got home, I took a bath to relax. I felt a little bit better. But I texted Kyle. to know what really happened. He told me:
"Derek Od'd on coke, and Steven got caught with weed"
So, I text paul and ask him about how much trouble steven would be in for weed. He told me not to worry, that he'll be fine. so, i went to bed but I couldnt sleep. Just lay there and think, and feel the cold air creeping up my feet.
so, Thursday, all I could think about was Steven Steven Steven. At lunch, I asked Ryan what happend. I'm pretty sure he was annoyed of the question, and Im pretty sure everyone had asked him. And he told me that steven had been sent to Alternative for 30 school days. I won't see him at school, until like, the begining of feburary, or something. But I'm willing to see him, outside of school. Sneak out, or do whatever I need to do.
Today, In 5th period, someone said that Dereks parents were going to sue steven for "attempted murder" I think that fag was making it up from the top of his head. because i told him exactly what I thought.
the convo. consisted of this
-"dereks parents are going to try to sue steven because steven gave him the coke"
-"why?"
-"because steven gave him the coke, and dereks never done drugs before."
-"thats bull fucking shit, I remember on the first day of school, Jeff took me to meet him because I said he was cute, and he was talking about his dad breaking his pipe, and that he had opium(sp?)"
-"......."
-"It's true, ask jeff. and either way, steven knows I hate when he does things other than weed. he wouldnt even have it if i was going to go to lunch with him that way."
I still have no idea what's going to happen.
I just wish I could talk to steven, and tell him everything i've felt these days. I've just felt empty. and shitty, and wishing i could do something to help him. I can only hope for the best. But this week made me realize how I really ffeeel about him.
I really hope he's okay. i wanna talk to him so bad.
I hope dereks okay, too.
Idunno, life can be shitty.
but it goes on.
I cannot wait until the day I get to touch his hand again.
I'm sorry this is so long. It's just what Ive been thinking. and I made everything into really brief convos, and thoughts so that you wouldnt have to read too much.
i need advice, you got any?
leave the comment.