Finally Got To See Them!!!
I finally got to see my newphew today. Thank God that I did. My heart has been hurting to see his little ass in a long time. I have never felt so bad as the day that he left for wherever he lives. He has always been MY boy even though he isn't MY son. I have always treated him better than his father did. His first word was Tony if that gives you any kind of indication as to how much he means to me. I taught him to shoot basketball, play baseball, and run with the football so that he didn't get killed. I love Ethan. He has always benn my biggest fan and I have always been his. He is the only person that I have ever gooten too close to and have never been hurt. Sure, he can upset me at times, but who hasn't gotten upset even with there best friend. I love being with him. The three months that I have been without him have been tough. Some of the most difficult times of my life. But the thing is that difficult times make us stronger people. I appreciate that life works that way, but it would be a lot more fun if there wasn't so much heart ache. Hes my boy and I love him genuinely in my heart. I think that he may be the only person that I have truely fallen in love with. His first word Tony and from right there, it was all him in my life. Things change, but my love for him has been the same and never-changing since he was born. Thats the way that love works. At least that is the way that true love works. It is never conceided or selfish, it is always thinking about the other person rather than yourself. Thats the way the way that true love works. I really love that boy and I hope that my son is ever bit as special as he is to me and I know that he will be!