Life in General
I have been super obsessed with the million leadership activities I have been involved in, that it inspired me to get out of my anti-social state, and since I am taking baby steps, I thought I would start with LJ.
I saw my x's g-f's x b-f the other day at Game Stop, and it made me feel like crap, and as a conclusion of that I finally understood why my life is so shitty, People are right, I dont allow myself to be happy, because I am incapable of letting go of things, but after endless hours at the cemetery talking to my dead bestfriend I finally got to see that those people that caused me that much pain dont really give a fuck about how i feel, they probably never wonder the massive impact they had on my life, and the permanent scars that they left open.
Truly, people come and go, and those who really matter leave an impact, but the question is what do you do when they leave a very very bad impact, how long would it take, for some people it's days, others weeks, months, years, but could it ever be never !
Work is perfect, and so is school, riding my dream truck, those unreachable dreams have been fulfilled, and have a perfect b-f wrapped around my fingers... So why do I have this need inside of me to keep thinking about what I really wanted before someone else decided to alter my dreams, and crush them.....
I saw my x's g-f's x b-f the other day at Game Stop, and it made me feel like crap, and as a conclusion of that I finally understood why my life is so shitty, People are right, I dont allow myself to be happy, because I am incapable of letting go of things, but after endless hours at the cemetery talking to my dead bestfriend I finally got to see that those people that caused me that much pain dont really give a fuck about how i feel, they probably never wonder the massive impact they had on my life, and the permanent scars that they left open.
Truly, people come and go, and those who really matter leave an impact, but the question is what do you do when they leave a very very bad impact, how long would it take, for some people it's days, others weeks, months, years, but could it ever be never !
Work is perfect, and so is school, riding my dream truck, those unreachable dreams have been fulfilled, and have a perfect b-f wrapped around my fingers... So why do I have this need inside of me to keep thinking about what I really wanted before someone else decided to alter my dreams, and crush them.....