needing some feedback from the girls...
So somewhere this weekend i think i got over my ex... but i dont think i really realized it till last night. i mean i know its been 10 months, but it took me finding my old live journal entry, and going thru the box of all his shit. I broke up with him the first time after 2 months, and i got back together with him. I remember balling over him at the castle, the first time we broke up. I remember getting pissed off at him with in the first week we were dating. I remember always having to go out and see him, he never came and saw me. I guess i just tried to block out all the shitty things for so long, that i never realized how much he really did hurt me. I know i did some things with him i probably shouldnt have, but ive learned alot from him. That relationships are 2 sided, Trust has to be there or else theres no relationship, The L word shouldnt just be tossed around lightly, it means alot... I guess i never even realized how much i got hurt and used in that relationship. When i findly thought about it last night, i couldnt beleive it... it was a totaly new feeling of just being able to trust someone, and know they werent going to hurt me. And i really cant beleive its only been 9 days with that person but he said something to me last night, that i couldnt beleive... He said that he didnt know what the l word was, and that he felt more for me then he did for his ex who he dated for 3 years... It took my breath away, and still does just thinking of it. I know its so fast, but its so natural, its like it was ment to be. But i guess i just want some feedback from the girls... just someone elses thoughts... Cause this feeling is so amazing, and yet i dont know where it started or what it is... i just know i dont want it to end, cause it makes me extreemly happy...