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New Year's Eve... Time for a major, whatthehelldoesitallmeananyway? moment. I had a nice holiday so far, but feeling pretty blah today. The hub wants to go downtown tonight, wander through casinos and watch the fireworks indoors and out. The Legacy is claiming to have indoor fireworks inside their giant dome. Should be either a neat trick, or several hundred stampeding rioters with their hair on fire. Entertaining either way. I am pretending like I want to go when really I want to crawl inside my shell and turtle. I'll take the champagne with me, thank you. Don isn't totally clueless; he came home from the grocery store this afternoon with flowers for me. Said he wanted to brighten up my day. I think it's important to try, at least for his sake, to get out there tonight and add my mass to the teeming masses.
If someone had told me that I would finish out 2006 covered in lurid scars, some visible, some of the less obvious guilt/anger variety, well,...I don't know what I would have done with foreknowledge of all THAT. Things happened, mistakes were made, bridges were crossed, and burned, demons were exorcised, new ones were conjured, and cookies were eaten. Lots and lots and lots of cookies. Yep, I'll be entering 2007 with more pounds, but fewer ribs. Who would have thunk it?
To those who know what I went through back in June, and the decision that had to be made when I was so weak mentally and physically, thank you for your support. I just want you all to know how much that meant to me; it helped. I don't know how I made it through this year as well as I did, but it really did help.
As the song says:
When all you've got to keep is strong, move along, move along.
If someone had told me that I would finish out 2006 covered in lurid scars, some visible, some of the less obvious guilt/anger variety, well,...I don't know what I would have done with foreknowledge of all THAT. Things happened, mistakes were made, bridges were crossed, and burned, demons were exorcised, new ones were conjured, and cookies were eaten. Lots and lots and lots of cookies. Yep, I'll be entering 2007 with more pounds, but fewer ribs. Who would have thunk it?
To those who know what I went through back in June, and the decision that had to be made when I was so weak mentally and physically, thank you for your support. I just want you all to know how much that meant to me; it helped. I don't know how I made it through this year as well as I did, but it really did help.
As the song says:
When all you've got to keep is strong, move along, move along.