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wow... it was a long time since my last entry.. actually it was nicole then too. i'm still agonizing in friday night party's aftermath. i wonder why i change so drastically when i'm intoxicated. you know, as i was driving down to bay area, i pondered on all the events that happened that night and found myself feeling mortified. but hey, i decided to think about it as 'that crazy thing that people do in college' and finally came to terms with it. although i don't think it was too too crazy, but for me, i bet that's the farthest i went out from my usual behavior boundaries i set for myself. who knows what will happen at next party?? i'm crossing my finger. hmmm.. the excitement from anticipating to see brandon is slowly fading away.. it feels like the "highness" i was feeling is wearing off. so depressing... T_T i don't know if it was just a drunkard thing for him too. i'm crossing my finger here too. in case what happened between him and i was nothing, i'm setting my expecation low so that i won't fall too deep later. AAAhhhhh!!! my obsessive behavior is slowly emerging. I. H.A.V.E.T.O.S.T.O.P. i really should study for psych for tomorrow's exam.. my procrastination is getting out of control.