Such a brilliant star you are.
Well it's Sunday, and I am avoiding work as usual. Brokedown Palace is on FX, so I'm watching that. The last time I saw it was right after it came out at Amanda Corson's house. Wow, that brings back some strange memories. It's a pretty good movie though. It's scary to think about the reality of it. I am getting way too excited about this haunted house idea for the lounge. I drew a little map of how it's going to be set up. This weekend was pretty good. I went home Friday to watch Anne Marie, and I went to Vic's cookout while she was at the Freeman/Tucker football game. Mom and Dad came home early, so I came back to Longwood after going to see The Grudge with Anne Marie. I don't care what anyone else says. I think I had five heart attacks during that movie. I was thinking about buying some more cloves. I don't know. I know smoking is bad for me...blah blah blah. I also know that I definitely won't smoke cloves after college. Sometimes I wonder what the harm is for smoking them for another year and a half. It's at that point that I am shocked by the fact that college is nearly over. Every school year flies by, and before I know it I won't be spending nine months of every year living within a few feet of a handful of my closest friends. Before I know it I'll be paying rent, either to my parents or some landlord. Before I know it I'll be responsible for my insurance, my food, and the education of a classroom full of children. I'd be lieing if I said that there wasn't a part of me that is scared. I'm scared of independence, of responsibility, but I have confidence in myself. I can push that little bit of scared me away and get the job done. I have dreams about traveling and about living in Georgia or Texas, near the ocean or in the country. I have dreams about a loving husband and adorable kids and a house all my own with a big front porch and a sunroom breakfast room painted the happiest yellow. I know most of them are silly kid dreams, and I know I can find happiness wherever I land, even if that is a one bedroom apartment in the east side of Henrico's west end. I think that's why I get so lost in books and even movies. You can go anywhere, do anything, even be a secret agent. Dreams never die, they just hybernate. When I've paid off my loans I'll save up to do some traveling. I'll meander through Europe and maybe even Asia. I'll make a roadtrip across the U.S. Well I think that's enough for one day. I'll go get some work done or watch Die Hard on FX.
Later Days.
Later Days.