Hey there Hi there Ho there

Aug 14, 2004 10:42

I've been in this really weird mood lately, like the I want to get on with my life mood. I feel like this summer, working at Arby's, is like a holding ground for what will be. I want to find someone to be happy with. I want to make plans for my future. I want to make plans for buying a house, finding a job, maybe even having kids. I've always told myself I'd have kids when I was like 25 or 26, but that seems very unlikely at this point. I mean it's hard to do all these things without another person. I guess most of all I just feel lonesome. It's ridiculous too, because I'm always hanging out with my Richmond friends or visiting my LU friends. I don't know though. I guess this is me wanting to grow up. I need to learn to grow up independent! I doubt Mr. Wonderful is just going to appear now that I'm ready. I have to make my own plans. That doesn't make me any less lonely though. I mean, I think about Ash and Arin. They're a unit. They share their thoughts. They make plans together. They have their issues, and they have their seperate things. They can always count on one another. I need someone I can count on. Someone who's ready to sip wine or margaritas on the front porch after dinner or walk the dog or I dunnno. I'm not even sure what I'm talking about.
What a tangent. Anyway. Today's my day off. I've already dropped off my car at the tire place, and at 12:20 I'm going to see Princess Diaries 2 with Mama and AM. Well I've gotta go pick up the car! The place called and it's ready!
Later Days.
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