letting myself go
I have been thinking about Joff a lot today.
He has been on my mind for all these past few days.
I dont know what to do.
If I should cry or smile?
I know that I cry because I miss him more than anything.
And I smile because he is up in Heaven right now.
Where we all cant wait to be.
I just think of everything Joff did and said to me.
Like:
"You look prettier with your hair down, I love girls with hair down, its just.. fun"
"You.. are.. so.. weird"
"You are so mean, why are you so mean?"
"Im sorrry" while he laughed at the same time
"Chut up!"
"Where are we going to lunch, IM BROKE!"
"GET DOWN"
"what are you looking at"
one of my favs, "What is your problem?!"
haha
and all the things he did
like:
sticking his hand in my face, totally messing up my make up
pulling the hair ties out of my head
hugging me and making me feel like I was the ONLY girl in the world.
Staring at me with his Joff faces
putting me in a head lock
knocking me down at the beach
throwing sand in my face
laughing with a loud HAHA
tripping me all the time
spraying me in the face with any drink inside his straws
grabbing my hand
looking into my eyes when he talked to me, the whole time [not many guys do that]
just yelling at me
me sitting in his car just talking to him
him struting around
me grabbing his water gun and ski mask and watching him laugh his head off at my antics
his smiles
his dancing
The true memories I have of him is when he danced at football games, came to my house after he hit a sign, nearly running me off the road, blocking me on the road, him cracking up at the crazy things I did, smiling all the time, the one skit drama did where he was SUPER LOVE and he was walking around being crazy joff on stage, his random yelling sprees.
His smile just flashes through my head.
Its just that smile of his.
It got me everytime.
I never could be sad when I saw it.
Gosh I love that boy and miss him so much.
Its still not real.
This is gonna take me a long time.
He was such a wonderful human being, no one can beat him.
I could keep talking about him, but I dont think livejournal can handle it.
So I will write about him in small doses.
I love you Joffrey David Orr
I cant wait to see you
I want a hug and your headlock haha
I will see you soon buddy
Your awesome
always and forever
your friend and sister in Christ, Lilli
♥ ♥ ♥
he really and truely was God's creation on an AMAZING day!
He has been on my mind for all these past few days.
I dont know what to do.
If I should cry or smile?
I know that I cry because I miss him more than anything.
And I smile because he is up in Heaven right now.
Where we all cant wait to be.
I just think of everything Joff did and said to me.
Like:
"You look prettier with your hair down, I love girls with hair down, its just.. fun"
"You.. are.. so.. weird"
"You are so mean, why are you so mean?"
"Im sorrry" while he laughed at the same time
"Chut up!"
"Where are we going to lunch, IM BROKE!"
"GET DOWN"
"what are you looking at"
one of my favs, "What is your problem?!"
haha
and all the things he did
like:
sticking his hand in my face, totally messing up my make up
pulling the hair ties out of my head
hugging me and making me feel like I was the ONLY girl in the world.
Staring at me with his Joff faces
putting me in a head lock
knocking me down at the beach
throwing sand in my face
laughing with a loud HAHA
tripping me all the time
spraying me in the face with any drink inside his straws
grabbing my hand
looking into my eyes when he talked to me, the whole time [not many guys do that]
just yelling at me
me sitting in his car just talking to him
him struting around
me grabbing his water gun and ski mask and watching him laugh his head off at my antics
his smiles
his dancing
The true memories I have of him is when he danced at football games, came to my house after he hit a sign, nearly running me off the road, blocking me on the road, him cracking up at the crazy things I did, smiling all the time, the one skit drama did where he was SUPER LOVE and he was walking around being crazy joff on stage, his random yelling sprees.
His smile just flashes through my head.
Its just that smile of his.
It got me everytime.
I never could be sad when I saw it.
Gosh I love that boy and miss him so much.
Its still not real.
This is gonna take me a long time.
He was such a wonderful human being, no one can beat him.
I could keep talking about him, but I dont think livejournal can handle it.
So I will write about him in small doses.
I love you Joffrey David Orr
I cant wait to see you
I want a hug and your headlock haha
I will see you soon buddy
Your awesome
always and forever
your friend and sister in Christ, Lilli
♥ ♥ ♥
he really and truely was God's creation on an AMAZING day!