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[ltnboots]

my uncle's cancer came back. along with his heart complications. so you can imagine what the doctors said: one month. what a great thing to find out the week after thanksgiving. he's suffering and its in no way fair. my parents went to see him friday and said he was doing fine, but he's in a lot of pain. then today, my mom called to tell me he wasn't coherent at all. he's going fast. which, in the grand scheme of things, is a blessing. but i hate it because i'm in auburn and cant go visit him. now they dont expect him to make it through the week. i havent seen him since i came home from camp this summer and i probably wont get to see him again. and on top of that, if he happens to pass away during finals, my mom doesnt want me coming home for the funeral. my emotions are torn. i'm not one to really get upset about things, so i think subconsciously i'm pushing this out of my head, and trying to keep my cool. but really, i've always said i'd be devasted when he died...he's my favorite. and to not even let me go to his funeral. i think i can make decisions for myself. i hate writing about my personal matters on here, but this news wore me out this morning. please just pray for my cousin and her mom. and more importantly pray for comfort for my uncle, no one as fabulous as he is should have to suffer before they die.

"in this culture you just sort of grieve quietly. you dont wanna embarass people with the big emotions out there. but they have to come out eventually"
*LT*