lame
So I've been going out with this new girl Tracy for a month and a half now and everything has been completely awesome. Till last week when we got back from a weekend trip from South Carolina. Her and my friends and family have said we've moved way too fast. I can yes we have, but if you were there and saw how just we clicked together, it would have been impossible to slow down. I'm a total romantic, I tend to go a bit over board when I start falling for someone. But its just how I feel, its hard to bottle up those emotions. It got harder to slow down when she showed how much she liked me, like she kept looking for my hand to grab and hold, she played with my finger tips, she grabbed on to my pants, its small stuff like that I notice that shows "hey she's really into you! Don't fuck this up!" and I tried not to! but like life it doesn't care for poor old Steven, Instead it told Tracy, "hey, you better slow down and back off of Steven or I'll shoot your cat"
Ok sorry that was a bit harsh, but this whole "I need some space, we need to slow down a bit" just came out of fucking no where. Ok yes, she is a bit more social than I am. She does like to go out drinking and have a good time, I like to too, but not to that certain extent. Its not like she get's completely drunk, just I don't fare well with drunken people, my dad isn't company when he starts drinking, he starts to pick fights on me about not finishing school or not getting a higher paying job, so maybe that's why I get all weird when drinking is involved. I completely trust her though, she does have a lot of guy friends and so far all of them have had their eye on her, but she chose me and I trust her.
Maybe I'm holding her back from having a good time that she's use to. If I am, maybe I should just end it, I don't want to her hating me down the road for not letting her have her fun.
I just love her so much, I thought I finally found that someone, where you just clicked. I don't want to lose her, but it doesn't seem like I have anymore anyways.
We still txt each other, def. not like we use to, she always txts me like 10-30mins after I reply back. But when we've met up for lunch or just a quick coffee, she's grabbed my hand, played with my finger tips and kissed me like nothing is wrong. Maybe I'm just over analyzing everything and she does wants some space for a bit.
But history has shown itself to me over and over again that good things don't happen to me like other couples. I just don't know what to do here.... sigh
Ok sorry that was a bit harsh, but this whole "I need some space, we need to slow down a bit" just came out of fucking no where. Ok yes, she is a bit more social than I am. She does like to go out drinking and have a good time, I like to too, but not to that certain extent. Its not like she get's completely drunk, just I don't fare well with drunken people, my dad isn't company when he starts drinking, he starts to pick fights on me about not finishing school or not getting a higher paying job, so maybe that's why I get all weird when drinking is involved. I completely trust her though, she does have a lot of guy friends and so far all of them have had their eye on her, but she chose me and I trust her.
Maybe I'm holding her back from having a good time that she's use to. If I am, maybe I should just end it, I don't want to her hating me down the road for not letting her have her fun.
I just love her so much, I thought I finally found that someone, where you just clicked. I don't want to lose her, but it doesn't seem like I have anymore anyways.
We still txt each other, def. not like we use to, she always txts me like 10-30mins after I reply back. But when we've met up for lunch or just a quick coffee, she's grabbed my hand, played with my finger tips and kissed me like nothing is wrong. Maybe I'm just over analyzing everything and she does wants some space for a bit.
But history has shown itself to me over and over again that good things don't happen to me like other couples. I just don't know what to do here.... sigh