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it's fucked up that i'm lonely even though i always have friends around.
i think the weather is getting to me.
it's fucked up that i've lost both my best friends in the past few months and the third of my 'best' friends never seems to understand me. even my boyfriend doesn't understand me.
it's fucked up how i always feel stressed out. whether i'm working or not. whether i'm doing Anything or not. i always feel anxious.
it's frustrating. it's confusing. nothing keeps me happy for long.
jacob said "you're always upset"
and he's right.
and jacob says he loves me.
and i push him away.
and jacob wants to join the military. to fix his life.
and i dont even know how to feel.
i think the weather is getting to me.
it's fucked up that i've lost both my best friends in the past few months and the third of my 'best' friends never seems to understand me. even my boyfriend doesn't understand me.
it's fucked up how i always feel stressed out. whether i'm working or not. whether i'm doing Anything or not. i always feel anxious.
it's frustrating. it's confusing. nothing keeps me happy for long.
jacob said "you're always upset"
and he's right.
and jacob says he loves me.
and i push him away.
and jacob wants to join the military. to fix his life.
and i dont even know how to feel.