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i love matt's new motorcycle. in the past 2 days we went out to dekalb and out to chicago on it. i am not sure if it's the freedom and speed that makes it exciting, or the fact that every moment is an 'oh shit' moment when matt is driving.
last night we went to our friends house and even though there was like 10 people over, i passed out on the couch like a 7 year old after coming home from great america. i was plum tuckered out.
i missed an opportunity i think. one more reason why fear sucks. it's definetly too late now
i need to talk to someone about something fucked up. it is scaring me. well i guess i dont Need to, but i'm going to hate myself forever if i dont bring it up. x2
some things aren't working and it really upsets me. i dont know what to do anymore though. the harder i try the more i fuck everything up. that's been a harsh reality in my life since i was probably about 12.
everything keeping me together is sorta falling apart.
i've been drunk a lot lately. i'm not sure if it's because i'm escaping and booze happens to be where i am, or if booze is my escape and i'm going to where it is.
my mood has improved even though my situations are deteriorating, so i guess it could be worse.
last night we went to our friends house and even though there was like 10 people over, i passed out on the couch like a 7 year old after coming home from great america. i was plum tuckered out.
i missed an opportunity i think. one more reason why fear sucks. it's definetly too late now
i need to talk to someone about something fucked up. it is scaring me. well i guess i dont Need to, but i'm going to hate myself forever if i dont bring it up. x2
some things aren't working and it really upsets me. i dont know what to do anymore though. the harder i try the more i fuck everything up. that's been a harsh reality in my life since i was probably about 12.
everything keeping me together is sorta falling apart.
i've been drunk a lot lately. i'm not sure if it's because i'm escaping and booze happens to be where i am, or if booze is my escape and i'm going to where it is.
my mood has improved even though my situations are deteriorating, so i guess it could be worse.