my life is fubar
well today is 4/21 which means in 25 days ill be done with my first year of college and home for the summer. i guess most people would be happy to be going home and getting away from school but i have mixed feelings about it. school has become my home. its where im the most comfortable. when i go home i fuck things up and make my life more complicated then it should be.
right now im torn about what to do with my ex. in the last week she has said that she has thoughts about possibly getting back together. and i dont really know what to do. i love that girl and i always will. but she did hurt me in december and i guess part of me will always have that paranoia that it could happen again if i dont do the right things to prevent it. and then there is also the history that i have since we broke up. i havent made the wisest choices in the world and msot of them have come back to bite me in the ass. she knows that i have slept with two of her friends since we split and im sure thats not goign to go away. what trust i ahd with her is lost and its going to be ahrd to gt it back. i guess the only positive to that is she wouldnt want me hanging out with her friends so i wouldnt have to worry about that.
it just seemed to happen at a bad time though. its not like i have anything else going on in my love life but im stressing over finals and getting rank and its jsut alot to deal with all at once.
right now im torn about what to do with my ex. in the last week she has said that she has thoughts about possibly getting back together. and i dont really know what to do. i love that girl and i always will. but she did hurt me in december and i guess part of me will always have that paranoia that it could happen again if i dont do the right things to prevent it. and then there is also the history that i have since we broke up. i havent made the wisest choices in the world and msot of them have come back to bite me in the ass. she knows that i have slept with two of her friends since we split and im sure thats not goign to go away. what trust i ahd with her is lost and its going to be ahrd to gt it back. i guess the only positive to that is she wouldnt want me hanging out with her friends so i wouldnt have to worry about that.
it just seemed to happen at a bad time though. its not like i have anything else going on in my love life but im stressing over finals and getting rank and its jsut alot to deal with all at once.