I KNEW IT!!!
So I just got off the phone with my best and...
OMG I KNEW IT!! I SO KNEW IT!! I knew he couldn't go for long without one. Women are just too irrestable. Show me a man under the age of 25 who can do without a woman and I will show you the liar inside.
It tore me apart once and I will not let it get to me again. If at any point the relationship is not working out, then that is not the relationship you need to be in. It doesn't matter which one of you isn't feeling it anymore or thinks that there is something else/better out there for them; once it's done - it's done. Ladies don't give a guy a second chance... If he wants to remain a part of your life let him do it as a friend. And if you still need him as a part of yours, remember that something happened between yall and it cannot be forgotten. If the matter of love is in play - let it be, that feeling will always be there whether he is or not.
So now he has decided that women are a more desirable being than once thought of before. (Idiot ::shakes head and rolls eyes:: I could have told him that from the day it happened...) What was he thinking? Especially through his addiction I knew it was inevitable he'd return. ::smirk:: But alas... it was his choice to leave everything behind and discover what his heart truely desired to share its affection towards.
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Although I still hold the love I once had, it's changed. I needed him to be a part of my life still and a relationship was not possible. So I graciously stepped aside and kept close what memories/feelings/and thoughts I could. Granted this time has come a little sooner than I had expected it has still come true. Now that I know it has happened I will keep to myself what I knew all along. (Men do not appreciate when women know something is going to happen to them that they don't know for themselves.)
Hopefully he will find the time to tell me himself. Though let's face it, that is highly doubtful to occur. Once I return to where we met and meet him again - by that time should be a good one...