fuck this
Hi
School starts soon
Back where I started
Can't really say that I've never been given a second chance in life
Cant tell the difference between now, and 2002
except a lot less beer and anxiety
Why do I keep getting caught up in being pissed at myself for taking this long to get to this point in life, at least as far as college is concerned. REALLY hard for me to deal with at times. Maybe I just like being bitchy and dramatic, and if it weren't this, it'd be something else. Or maybe it is that terrible that I've only gotten so far. Sure, not many of my friends have accomplished as much in their careers as I have at my age... then again, many have accomplished much more. AND have their degree. Why the fuck do I feel the need to compare so much? Gah, men have such fragile egos. Seriously.
Other than that though, things are swell I guess. You know, other than my life being stuck in a rut... as in, college. Fuck, I hate school. I dunno If I think thats it is really that bad, or if I just keep wanting to look past it, looking for the next step. Something more. Pity that someone who loves knowledges and reads as much as I do has such a difficult time finding motivation for learning.
Yeah, I'm a whining little brat.
I wish I could design my own major at this school. I also need to look into scholarships for college out of state. Sure, maybe id just be running from the same old things again, but I really don't wanna be here anymore. Florida maybe? somewhere in the Carolinas? Maybe instead of chasing a new thing every 5 minutes, I need to stay and get used to being bored with things. the mundane. yeah, prepare me for life
where the hell did all the pessimism come from? I swear it wasn't here when I sat down
School starts soon
Back where I started
Can't really say that I've never been given a second chance in life
Cant tell the difference between now, and 2002
except a lot less beer and anxiety
Why do I keep getting caught up in being pissed at myself for taking this long to get to this point in life, at least as far as college is concerned. REALLY hard for me to deal with at times. Maybe I just like being bitchy and dramatic, and if it weren't this, it'd be something else. Or maybe it is that terrible that I've only gotten so far. Sure, not many of my friends have accomplished as much in their careers as I have at my age... then again, many have accomplished much more. AND have their degree. Why the fuck do I feel the need to compare so much? Gah, men have such fragile egos. Seriously.
Other than that though, things are swell I guess. You know, other than my life being stuck in a rut... as in, college. Fuck, I hate school. I dunno If I think thats it is really that bad, or if I just keep wanting to look past it, looking for the next step. Something more. Pity that someone who loves knowledges and reads as much as I do has such a difficult time finding motivation for learning.
Yeah, I'm a whining little brat.
I wish I could design my own major at this school. I also need to look into scholarships for college out of state. Sure, maybe id just be running from the same old things again, but I really don't wanna be here anymore. Florida maybe? somewhere in the Carolinas? Maybe instead of chasing a new thing every 5 minutes, I need to stay and get used to being bored with things. the mundane. yeah, prepare me for life
where the hell did all the pessimism come from? I swear it wasn't here when I sat down