Confused
Sometimes you think if some friendships are worth all of the hassle. I mean some of them are definetly worthwhile but some of them I stop and consider them. You never know who your real friends are untill you really need them. It is like that with one of my best friends. I think that she only comes and hangs out with me whenever she has her heart broken from a boyfriend I told her not to go out with in the first place. But as soon as she gets someone else she completly abandons me and I am stuck wondering what if anything I have done to shove her off. It is very confusing when she tells me bold face lies and thinks that there is never any consequences for her. She always thinks that there is never any problems with what she does and then when someone confronts her she thinks that we are just trying to hurt her. At night I stay up late and wonder about why we are like this. Why we are always like this with only each other. I always go out at night and smoke whils thinking about what we have done to deserve this. I picked up that habit from her. And sometimes I cry about it. I even went to the place I promised myself never to go for her. I went to my worst nightmare...the hospital and it looked like it didn't even phase her not a tiny little bit at all. We have always said that whenever we fight that we would pretend that nothing has happened but this time I think that this time I don't think that I can forget about this. It has happened for to long and far to many times. Whenever I walk outside at night and smoke I wonder if this friendship even worth saving?? Right now that is the only thing on my mind because untill I decide that question this is the most important friend in my life we have been through everything together and I think that this friendship needs some time to think about. She is like the sister I have never had and now I have one and it would seem like a waste if I decide that this friendship isn't worth it right now. I need some serious time to think about this situation.