lol...no not really
What the heck..I swear sometimes I hate being me..I really do..I can't just not care or anything..I let the dumbest things annoy the piss out of me...
I talked to Ashley last night and asked what she was doing today and she told me that she had the hospital and had to buy a folio and said that she wouldn't be gone all day and that there was possiblity that we could see eachother today..So today, I cleaned my room and such just in case she did come over or anything...I figured she'd call around 3 to see what was going on because she usuallys around that time everyday,almost everyday anyway...but she didn't call, which is fine, I was just used to it...My mom asked me if she called or whatever or if I talked to her and I said no,she probablly call when she's done with everything and stuff, So I didn't worry about or anything because I figured she'd call when she was done tell me if we would be able to hang out or not, of cousre I built my self up on seeing her today, because I'm a stupid fuck and always plan on stuff when I know inside that odds are, won't happen...Anyway, I called her house a little bit ago, figuring she wouldn't be home because she hadn't called, so I call and she answers..I'm already bummed because she hadn't called yet(not that she said she would or anything) but because she home and stuff already, SO I ask her how her grandpa is and stuff and she said that h'es doing good and I ask if she got her Folio and she said yeah and she had to go to someones old house today to get stuff...I think it was her grandfathers old house, but
i'm not sure...But I knew she had gone because she was sorting out something they got there...I was in fear of busting out in tears on the phone, So I said I was going to see what my friend was doing but he wasn't at the computer, so i figured he wasn't home...
I'm not like mad or anything, but her not calling or anything, makes me feel like I'm waiting for disappointment..It seemed like she already knew we weren't gonna be able to hang out..I didn't even bother to ask what time she got home...So I don't even know what time she got back, She seemed pretty tired on the phone and stuff, so it seemed she had been home for a bit..I tend to assume the worst because that always seems to be whats going on...
I thought i was ready to get back with her, I had seen her alot and now I feel like I'm hardly gonna get to see her...I don't want to get back with her and then not be able to see her..Right now, I feel that is where its going on...I don't our relation ship to just be over the phone and stuff...I'm gonna...I'm gonna post something I wrote about 9 or 10 months ago...all of my older stuff is way longer than what I write now...I'm gone
I talked to Ashley last night and asked what she was doing today and she told me that she had the hospital and had to buy a folio and said that she wouldn't be gone all day and that there was possiblity that we could see eachother today..So today, I cleaned my room and such just in case she did come over or anything...I figured she'd call around 3 to see what was going on because she usuallys around that time everyday,almost everyday anyway...but she didn't call, which is fine, I was just used to it...My mom asked me if she called or whatever or if I talked to her and I said no,she probablly call when she's done with everything and stuff, So I didn't worry about or anything because I figured she'd call when she was done tell me if we would be able to hang out or not, of cousre I built my self up on seeing her today, because I'm a stupid fuck and always plan on stuff when I know inside that odds are, won't happen...Anyway, I called her house a little bit ago, figuring she wouldn't be home because she hadn't called, so I call and she answers..I'm already bummed because she hadn't called yet(not that she said she would or anything) but because she home and stuff already, SO I ask her how her grandpa is and stuff and she said that h'es doing good and I ask if she got her Folio and she said yeah and she had to go to someones old house today to get stuff...I think it was her grandfathers old house, but
i'm not sure...But I knew she had gone because she was sorting out something they got there...I was in fear of busting out in tears on the phone, So I said I was going to see what my friend was doing but he wasn't at the computer, so i figured he wasn't home...
I'm not like mad or anything, but her not calling or anything, makes me feel like I'm waiting for disappointment..It seemed like she already knew we weren't gonna be able to hang out..I didn't even bother to ask what time she got home...So I don't even know what time she got back, She seemed pretty tired on the phone and stuff, so it seemed she had been home for a bit..I tend to assume the worst because that always seems to be whats going on...
I thought i was ready to get back with her, I had seen her alot and now I feel like I'm hardly gonna get to see her...I don't want to get back with her and then not be able to see her..Right now, I feel that is where its going on...I don't our relation ship to just be over the phone and stuff...I'm gonna...I'm gonna post something I wrote about 9 or 10 months ago...all of my older stuff is way longer than what I write now...I'm gone