pointless!!
Why do people have journal's that aren't on Live Journal...Live Journal is by far the coolest in my opinion out of all the journal sites...I've had journals on the 3 that I know of...Deadjournal and then U Journal and Now I'm on Live Journal..Which by far is the best decision journal wise I've ever made..If you know anyone that has journal but not on LJ, tell them to get Live Journal..Whatever Though..
The time On my computer clock reads 1:18 PM..If that time is right then I've been up for over 24 hours...But I think I fell asleep, but i don't remember falling asleep and if I did fall Asleep, I didn't dream..
I had 2 interesting Conversations last night...One With Danielle and One With Jessica..
The conversation I had with Danielle sort of revolved around our past with eachother..We really never talked about it before, I brought it up, we talked alot about, how we had eachother all year and stuff...We went out so many times, and everytime she broke up with me and I told her stuff that I never told her before....
Then I talked to Jessica, Who I know now doesn't hate me, I never really thought she hated me, but you know...We talked for almost an hour about like emo-ness and relationships and then we started talking about music tastes and how I listen to genre and then go listen to the exact opposite thing...
The Places That You Have Come To Fear The Most is one of the greatest cd's ever..Chris Carrabba's the man...But I'm not gay..
I haven't talked to Ashley in like 4 days..We talked for like 2 minutes on Thursday, She was supposed to call me but she didn't, she was also supposed to come over on Wendsday, but she didn't do that either...She didn't pack and decided to do it the day before they left..shit..I pack the day of..Its easier that way..I thought it was funny that she didn't want to come over because she needed to pack, she didn't want her mom to, but then she didn't start packing until 9 at night, which makes no sense to me..
I wish I knew why she liked me again, cause I don't understand..I want her to like me because she likes me, not because she can't have matt or she's lonely, or she just wants someone..I've thought alot of how as soon as she found out that Matt's ex liked Matt again, that she liked Matt again..I'd like to hope thats not what it is..She kept saying that She Knew that she knew she wasn't getting anywhere with Matt, Does That Make Me Second best??
I asked her why she liked Me again and she said that she just realized some stuff..I'm wondering if It's She can't have Matt?
I've thought alot about it lately, I don't want to get involved just for the same thing to happen again..Alot people would like to say I'm dumb for as waiting as Long as I did before breaking up with her. I'll agree that stupidity played apart in it, but it wasn't just me, she could have just been honest..But I waited as long as I did because I wanted to be with her and I was willing to fight through all of that..Anyone who knows me knows the story and if she would have just been upfront..Half of the shit wouldn't of happened..
Maybe This time away from eachother will clear our heads, she says she wants to be together again, eventually, but does she really...
The time On my computer clock reads 1:18 PM..If that time is right then I've been up for over 24 hours...But I think I fell asleep, but i don't remember falling asleep and if I did fall Asleep, I didn't dream..
I had 2 interesting Conversations last night...One With Danielle and One With Jessica..
The conversation I had with Danielle sort of revolved around our past with eachother..We really never talked about it before, I brought it up, we talked alot about, how we had eachother all year and stuff...We went out so many times, and everytime she broke up with me and I told her stuff that I never told her before....
Then I talked to Jessica, Who I know now doesn't hate me, I never really thought she hated me, but you know...We talked for almost an hour about like emo-ness and relationships and then we started talking about music tastes and how I listen to genre and then go listen to the exact opposite thing...
The Places That You Have Come To Fear The Most is one of the greatest cd's ever..Chris Carrabba's the man...But I'm not gay..
I haven't talked to Ashley in like 4 days..We talked for like 2 minutes on Thursday, She was supposed to call me but she didn't, she was also supposed to come over on Wendsday, but she didn't do that either...She didn't pack and decided to do it the day before they left..shit..I pack the day of..Its easier that way..I thought it was funny that she didn't want to come over because she needed to pack, she didn't want her mom to, but then she didn't start packing until 9 at night, which makes no sense to me..
I wish I knew why she liked me again, cause I don't understand..I want her to like me because she likes me, not because she can't have matt or she's lonely, or she just wants someone..I've thought alot of how as soon as she found out that Matt's ex liked Matt again, that she liked Matt again..I'd like to hope thats not what it is..She kept saying that She Knew that she knew she wasn't getting anywhere with Matt, Does That Make Me Second best??
I asked her why she liked Me again and she said that she just realized some stuff..I'm wondering if It's She can't have Matt?
I've thought alot about it lately, I don't want to get involved just for the same thing to happen again..Alot people would like to say I'm dumb for as waiting as Long as I did before breaking up with her. I'll agree that stupidity played apart in it, but it wasn't just me, she could have just been honest..But I waited as long as I did because I wanted to be with her and I was willing to fight through all of that..Anyone who knows me knows the story and if she would have just been upfront..Half of the shit wouldn't of happened..
Maybe This time away from eachother will clear our heads, she says she wants to be together again, eventually, but does she really...