Love? What for?

[lrrldrummer]

Well here it is 3rd period again and tears are stilling rolling down my cheeks. Everything seems to have just blown up. Everything was fine then poof all gone. All that I had gained was lost oh so easily, it's quite funny actually. Now I dont think I even have a chance. Mom is angry at me again. (what else is new). Im in a period of time Nick and I like to call Emo Matt. It sucks actually and it hit me about 3 yesterday afternoon. I felt some sort of.....infinite sadness swell over me. First things first im sorry I shouldnt have done that Renae. To Danny (if he reads this) Renae says you are jelous. What for? You have nothing to be jelouse about. Right now I am nothing. Renae says she is not mad at me I guess I believe her. I mean she has never lied to me so I should believe her. Maybe for once I thought it would be different thats why I asked. I was battling my conscience and obviously lost. I even started to walk away. But no Matt had to turn around and say something that it really was meaningful but shouldnt have been said. I just hope I actually still have a chance. I might get kicked out of my house again for refusing to go to sleep last night. Oh well this is becoming routine for me. Sleepless...confused...indescribable perfect tuesday huh? Well im off I'll talk to both of you when I get home I guess. Dont worry I know its not the end of the world.

~Have a nice day~

*I love MY duckie bunches*

*Find all you need in your mind, if you take the time* -Dream Theater