Damnit, I changed again.
Man! I am sick of the direction that my life is going. And normally I honestly hate people who say shit like that because they desperately need to change. It's unhealthy to hate your situation. plain and simple. But the only problem is I see SO MANY ways out, all of which are so close, yet so far away.
I probably shouldn't put this in a blog. But I feel like my girlfriend is getting seriously bored with me. And she's not the only one.
I changed. I changed a lot. I changed too much. I don't even recognize myself. I hate the way I am now. I want to go back to high school. As much as I hated it.... I miss it so much. I regret being shy, I regret being quiet. I regret being creepy and scaring people off. I regret never going to parties. I regret never being invited. I regret not trying harder with my band. I just regret high school. I want to fix my life...
oh well... Just fuck it.
I guess i was never meant to have success at work, in a band, or really anywhere.
Just fuck it.
I probably shouldn't put this in a blog. But I feel like my girlfriend is getting seriously bored with me. And she's not the only one.
I changed. I changed a lot. I changed too much. I don't even recognize myself. I hate the way I am now. I want to go back to high school. As much as I hated it.... I miss it so much. I regret being shy, I regret being quiet. I regret being creepy and scaring people off. I regret never going to parties. I regret never being invited. I regret not trying harder with my band. I just regret high school. I want to fix my life...
oh well... Just fuck it.
I guess i was never meant to have success at work, in a band, or really anywhere.
Just fuck it.