by myself.........
basically the last couple of months at my house for me have seemed like im on a distant planet. it always seems like im the oddball of everything. by being the way i am , not being like my step sis and moms side of the family and being the stereotypical black kid that everyone likes. i walk in the house , listen to my rock music on my computer without headphones, meaning playing it loud, and its like i get looked at for being white. its really tough when u have that stereotyple label put on u no matter wut u do. but i do admit that i love gettin the reaction out of them when i wear my clothes or just my everyday things. in my head i just want to say "shove it, u don't understand" . but anough of my little rant that i tend to do to get sum stress of my mind. i can't wait til friday, Cubs vs. Sox , god i hope the sox sweep their asses, im i diehard sox fan and any loss to the cubs is like the worst thing for me x billion. god i know i really really need a g/f , im watching tv or im at work and since its gettin hot outside over here, all these girls are wearing the shortest things! Man my hormones are raging extremely , god i just wanna go crazy, being 19 virgin with raging hormones is not fun when everywhere u go u see sumthing u just wish u had. AHHHHHHHHH . sumtimes i wish i didn't pass up opportunities ive had in the pass with sex but hey i guess it ain't my time . shit time better start going faster or im going to die. payday tomorrow and again my money will be going to bills. pray for me i need to win sum money badly! LOTTERY!!!!!!!!!!PLEASE