yup
wow i havent updated this thing in forever but since no one reads this i guess i can post what i really feel.. my blogs are just bullshit so people will think i am happy.. but in reality i am not happy with everything.. im with someone i really dont wanna be with but at least im not alone...i do miss that mother fucker alot but well he chose to be a dick so i am gonna be a bitch.. being a bitch is the only thing that is keeping me sane if i let all that shit get to me then ill break down.. i never thought it would get this bad but it has.. and i think for once this is the last time we will be together.. after this shit i dont think there is any going back to each other. if we did nothing would change he would still mistreat me and think i am clingy and it would all be the same! but a big part of me wants him back but i know it wont work out cuz he will never change his ways.. he gets bored and always wants something new.. its a killer.. but im done crying over this i just need to suck it up and move on.. hopefully this new person will be what i need.. but lets see how it all turns out!