No EnErGy
These days it seems as if i have no more energy to put in anything. Friendships, school, family,existence....really whats the use. I think the only thing I'm holding on to is the future. In hopes that maybe something will finally brighten my day. The only person that loves me the most can since it in my voice and yet i cant. I try to energize my self day to day but there's just nothing left to excite my day. Its not that no one understands, its just that you don't understand.
I miss my car, my beautiful freedom and happiness of getting away by which i wreaked. It sucks knowing that i had a really good thing and i killed it. ITS SOO GAY. There's not another one like it. Now i have to settle for less and thats a big problem for me.
I miss my time. The time i had to be me and to hang out with the ones that really make me happy. My time is being overtaking by a job where there's no stairs for the future. A very pointless one at that. Also where i go to be yelled at for doing absolutely nothing wrong but one trying to be a mere servant for the needs of someone else.
When i say the world has gone crazy and is insane and retarded. I'm really referring to my self and the mere fact of i have no clue as to who i really am.