I Never Thaught Reality Would Hit Me So Hard.
Wow. I never thought that reality would hit me so hard. I started at D- Walt. The alternative school i have to go to because I was a teenager and brought alcohol to school. I really don't know how I'm going to get through this. Man at this school i sit in a cubical all day and do packet work. Imagine doing that for 18 weeks!!! I promise i will go crazy.
Right now to me everything is lost. Everything I worked hard for for just about 12 years down the drain. All my PAP classes gone. I'm am the smartest one at my school. That includes the teachers. The only sport i was good at cheer leading gone too. Since I have to go to D-walt, I can't see my friends. Even on weekends I have to work.
Everyday so far since I have started school; I have came home and cried. That's not me at all. I have the hardest time getting out of bed. I mean whats the point? I wont get to see my friends or have fun or anythings good. I'm getting out of bed to do something I shouldn't have to be doing; something pointless; something I don't need. It hurts to know that my friends are out enjoying every minute with each other and I can't even be there.
I MISS THAT WITH ALL OF MY HEART AND SOUL AND I WOULD GIVE ANYTHING TO BE THERE WITH THEM!!!!
How would you like to be in a uniform 24/7? How would you like to go to a school that takes you back academically 2 years and is like jail but with out the bars? How would you like it having to spread you feet and stick out your tongue just to go through a metal detector every morning for 18 weeks? How would you like it if you never got to see your best friends because you go to school during the week and work on weekends; but still have to listen to what a great time they had and act happy about it?Would you be able to put on a smile? Cause I sure as hell can!!!