HaRdEr To DeAl
Why do the nights seem to be the highlights of my life. Knowing that im going to dream something other then this experiences im going through now seems to satisfy me. I just cant take it anymore!!! Im tired not being able to sleep at night and having to force myself to sleep everynight. I dont know if im going through depression or if its just cause im not wasting anough energy during the day or what. Im just so god damn tired of nothing making me happy nothing. It used to be where i could look at the moon and that would put a huge smile on my face. But now when i look at it i feel nothing. Right now all i feel is sorrow and guilt and just constant pain. Im tired of feeling this way all the time.....i just want it to go away!!!! All i feel is the constant hurt in my chest and the need to throw up all the time. What can i do to make it go away ......I JUST WANT IT TO GO AWAY...I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS!!!! Please god , anyboby, fucking what can i do???