sometimes, I just..
sometimes, I just don't get God.
I mean, God has taken me to wonderful places. Don't get me wrong. A lot of times I had no clue what was happening and God did something unimaginable.
But right now, I just... I wonder what's He's got planned.
I am about a month away from being unemployed and homeless.. kinda. My grant funding ends Sept 31 and so does my lease. We may get more funding from a grant... but we were supposed to find out two weeks ago... and still haven't.
I thought I was a shoe in for a new job, and then I found out they needed someone specifically for a time when I am already committed to run the farmers' market.. which right now is the only reason I am staying in the area. I have to run the market until end of October, at least. Funny, right? God is a frickin' riot.
I am not ready to leave this place. I love the people. I love the land. I love the food. People love me. The land nourishes me. The church gave me a new view of God and God showed me things I never saw before. I have potential here to touch more lives, to improve the farmers' market, to learn more about God. I am not ready to leave.
I know I have to have faith. and trust. and a lot of it. I won't crash and burn. But I'm feeling like I'm on the edge.
Pray for me.
I mean, God has taken me to wonderful places. Don't get me wrong. A lot of times I had no clue what was happening and God did something unimaginable.
But right now, I just... I wonder what's He's got planned.
I am about a month away from being unemployed and homeless.. kinda. My grant funding ends Sept 31 and so does my lease. We may get more funding from a grant... but we were supposed to find out two weeks ago... and still haven't.
I thought I was a shoe in for a new job, and then I found out they needed someone specifically for a time when I am already committed to run the farmers' market.. which right now is the only reason I am staying in the area. I have to run the market until end of October, at least. Funny, right? God is a frickin' riot.
I am not ready to leave this place. I love the people. I love the land. I love the food. People love me. The land nourishes me. The church gave me a new view of God and God showed me things I never saw before. I have potential here to touch more lives, to improve the farmers' market, to learn more about God. I am not ready to leave.
I know I have to have faith. and trust. and a lot of it. I won't crash and burn. But I'm feeling like I'm on the edge.
Pray for me.