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so far, i have been told that i am out of control, that i am a slob, that even if i do get into college, i probably won't go. I've been called a problem child. now i'm without any money, and without any life. right now nothing but school and my room is important, because the college apps are over. bullshit. i never did karate just for the fun of it. i did it because it was what i love to do. now it's being taken away from me. the thing is, my dad doesnt believe in doing what you love to do, but what you have to do.
i'm not complaining about the way i'm being treated. i definetly warranted all of this. what i'm saying is, doing this to me right now, at the end of the 7th semester, is just too damn difficult. i'm not even allowed study groups, and i need to have a detailed plan of my day available for inspection at any given time. now, you tell me. do ANY of you do that? anyone? and to ask me to suddenly produce such a plan for every day when i've never really done that before, it's just really hard.
this house is beginning to close its grip around my throat. right now i'm debating whether or not to come back here after summer camp...haha what a homecoming that'll be.
the stress is too much. i can handle anything my dad throws at me, or anything the school throws at me. But to get everything from both ends at once....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
something's going to break.
i'm not complaining about the way i'm being treated. i definetly warranted all of this. what i'm saying is, doing this to me right now, at the end of the 7th semester, is just too damn difficult. i'm not even allowed study groups, and i need to have a detailed plan of my day available for inspection at any given time. now, you tell me. do ANY of you do that? anyone? and to ask me to suddenly produce such a plan for every day when i've never really done that before, it's just really hard.
this house is beginning to close its grip around my throat. right now i'm debating whether or not to come back here after summer camp...haha what a homecoming that'll be.
the stress is too much. i can handle anything my dad throws at me, or anything the school throws at me. But to get everything from both ends at once....
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
something's going to break.