la de da
so... matt finally called me today. He is coming to see me on wed after my busy busy day. but these days.. when is not a busy day. I'll answer that for you.... SUNDAY! even sats are busy now in my life. If i dont have a wqaq event.. i have a WCCC event.. or im doing something.. like this week. I babysat yesterday. I was there for 7 hours about... the kids were asleep for the last three.... and guess what? so was i. I was reading as usually, i do.. and the next thing i know the phone was ringing in the house waking me up in the process. (anyway... who the fuck calls someone at like 11:30 when you know she has the kids of the week.. and they are sure as fuck sleeping? huh? stupid people...let us also ignore the fact the babysitter was sleeping also.. hahahah!) anyway.. i got paid for being there 8 hours which was amazing because i am really running low on money. I feel really horrible.. because i am going to have nothing left in my account after i finish up with college. But hey.. mom and dad are having a blast redoing the whole kitchen, their bathroom, a bit of my bathroom, the hallway.. why not just redo the whole house? they are selling anyway.. not yet.. but sometime soon. knowing dad.. he never enters into something like that lightly. i will cry when we do sell the house. Jason will probably be very upset also.. but he lived somewhere else his first 5 years. this is the only home i have ever known. Mom and i were talking about it about a year ago and i couldnt help it.. i just burst out crying thinking how i wouldnt be able to spend another spring in the garden picking lily of the valley.. or spending fall smelling the moist earth and knowning that smell. sigh.. oh well.. im making myself misty.
so i might not get that on air show intern slot. Im sorry if im asking for a lot.. but i dont live here. i want my mommy and daddy and my brother! i havent seen them in so long! i miss random weekends when jay comes home and we go for our "weird" breakfasts at the diner. (we are just getting close... i mean we have always been kind of connnected.. but we are actually starting to understand each other.. you have no idea how touched i was, when he called me for the eclipse the other day.) i miss spending time with my parents and just chillin for sunday breakfast at the house listening to the radio with dad and bugging him with a million questions. i miss him asking me questions for the puzzle and not knowning them and him pretending to get mad at me. i miss my bed. i miss the smell of home. i love it here.. but its not my home. damn.. im gonna cry again. THINK HAPPY LAURA THOUGHTS!!!! mmmmmm chocolate! ari was pretending to get mad at me because i kept eating the halloween candy... im sorry.. i havent had junk food in a while. I try to keep it at a low... i have been eating right.. hardly on my meds.. and feeling great. I even do ok when i eat food i shouldnt be eating.. no pains.... i love it! and the funny thing.. i havent been this stressed but this happy in a while. i have a great job i dont get paid for, i have a ton of leadership roles, a great boyfriend, parents who love me...(unless i do bad in school... then the yelling comes out... pooh)
OKAY.. jeez.. i love how i only write.. and write so much.. when im putting off other work. la de da...
IM GOING! OK! ILL DO MY WORK.. *winks and kisses* wait must be more metal.. grrrr.. go fuck yourself.. hahahahahahahaha
so i might not get that on air show intern slot. Im sorry if im asking for a lot.. but i dont live here. i want my mommy and daddy and my brother! i havent seen them in so long! i miss random weekends when jay comes home and we go for our "weird" breakfasts at the diner. (we are just getting close... i mean we have always been kind of connnected.. but we are actually starting to understand each other.. you have no idea how touched i was, when he called me for the eclipse the other day.) i miss spending time with my parents and just chillin for sunday breakfast at the house listening to the radio with dad and bugging him with a million questions. i miss him asking me questions for the puzzle and not knowning them and him pretending to get mad at me. i miss my bed. i miss the smell of home. i love it here.. but its not my home. damn.. im gonna cry again. THINK HAPPY LAURA THOUGHTS!!!! mmmmmm chocolate! ari was pretending to get mad at me because i kept eating the halloween candy... im sorry.. i havent had junk food in a while. I try to keep it at a low... i have been eating right.. hardly on my meds.. and feeling great. I even do ok when i eat food i shouldnt be eating.. no pains.... i love it! and the funny thing.. i havent been this stressed but this happy in a while. i have a great job i dont get paid for, i have a ton of leadership roles, a great boyfriend, parents who love me...(unless i do bad in school... then the yelling comes out... pooh)
OKAY.. jeez.. i love how i only write.. and write so much.. when im putting off other work. la de da...
IM GOING! OK! ILL DO MY WORK.. *winks and kisses* wait must be more metal.. grrrr.. go fuck yourself.. hahahahahahahaha