THE EX and GETTING OUT OF MY HEAD
Well let see, the ex is back in town, sometime i wish she had not returned at all.
I finally got some balance back in things, but she came here and stayed at my house.
She was seeing a guy who gave her a ring, well promise ring but though she was happy with him she was not harpy with life there.
When she got here, old sparks kinda came in here and there and well we had a few moments and life for a short time became normal. it was great, though we didn't crash together, it was ok.
So anyway, she and her BF got into it he got all kinda weird about things which i don't blame him but drove her to not want him about much.
So she was out locally and a guy went after her, not a shabby type, more her style, and well my send of things i felt something between them forming.
There is a time when you know someone and you just know. She got out of my place to one of hers and a few roomies. Cheap and her own room and all. OK fine...
So anyway, she is spending allot of time and slips up one night and i go you said you weren't fucking, she goes well, i said i knew anyway.
What peeved me is she still lied, i knew they was a pseudo thing and she liked him because he was a neutral party. It was not me, or her BF he had no clue, just a stranger she got with.
So anyway, long story short the BF is over and this is her new toy, he is going away soon but they are OFFICIAL dating now.
It hurt me again, i wanted the time i wanted her attentions. Granted i get lunch now and then or make dinner when she does laundry but i just feel i am a fall back or some one to use. Odd though is she calls me allot or ims allot if she is home but she sleeps with him and kidna loves him.
I got really upset bout that and i really don't have a right to but damn. i still cannot get her out of my system, the one person i thought could freaked out and is a lost cause. Any others i consider are away or not quite there yet or blah.
I am hurting inside, i want the comfort she offered me both physically and mentally. She can be cold and uncaring when she needs to but damn.
he'll be gone soon and see where it goes, i have great doubts, and feel unfulfilled. I love caring and taking care of someone and they return that back. i still care and love her, but she is isolating me for that reason. UGH! till next week tune in and we'll see what happens.
I finally got some balance back in things, but she came here and stayed at my house.
She was seeing a guy who gave her a ring, well promise ring but though she was happy with him she was not harpy with life there.
When she got here, old sparks kinda came in here and there and well we had a few moments and life for a short time became normal. it was great, though we didn't crash together, it was ok.
So anyway, she and her BF got into it he got all kinda weird about things which i don't blame him but drove her to not want him about much.
So she was out locally and a guy went after her, not a shabby type, more her style, and well my send of things i felt something between them forming.
There is a time when you know someone and you just know. She got out of my place to one of hers and a few roomies. Cheap and her own room and all. OK fine...
So anyway, she is spending allot of time and slips up one night and i go you said you weren't fucking, she goes well, i said i knew anyway.
What peeved me is she still lied, i knew they was a pseudo thing and she liked him because he was a neutral party. It was not me, or her BF he had no clue, just a stranger she got with.
So anyway, long story short the BF is over and this is her new toy, he is going away soon but they are OFFICIAL dating now.
It hurt me again, i wanted the time i wanted her attentions. Granted i get lunch now and then or make dinner when she does laundry but i just feel i am a fall back or some one to use. Odd though is she calls me allot or ims allot if she is home but she sleeps with him and kidna loves him.
I got really upset bout that and i really don't have a right to but damn. i still cannot get her out of my system, the one person i thought could freaked out and is a lost cause. Any others i consider are away or not quite there yet or blah.
I am hurting inside, i want the comfort she offered me both physically and mentally. She can be cold and uncaring when she needs to but damn.
he'll be gone soon and see where it goes, i have great doubts, and feel unfulfilled. I love caring and taking care of someone and they return that back. i still care and love her, but she is isolating me for that reason. UGH! till next week tune in and we'll see what happens.