I want my world back

[lpbaseballstar8]

Well today seems to be the low point in the whole situation. Unless (which im hoping doesnt happen) it gets worse. Well to explain, Stacy and i were supposed to see each other today after she got off of work. But she told me that she wasnt feeling well so she wanted to go to the doctor and she said that she would call me after she got out to tell me how she was feeling....she didnt. i called her at 830 or so (824 to be exact) and i asked if she was still at the doctors, she wasnt. my only question is this, why? why didnt she call me and tell me that she didnt want to see me? then at least i could have thought of something else to do, i probably wouldnt have, but i could have tried. it just really hurts, b/c i asked her to never leave me hanging, and she did. She told me that we would talk tonight, do i expect it...no, do i want to...of course
I dont like this (us being apart). i want us to be together, forever. but i know that this time apart will help us become stronger. But she is my whole world, and i dont like haveing my world taken away from me, and i want it back. The question is though: how? i dont know. its out of my hands and the decison is hers, not mine. im powerless, which makes me feel worthless. i just want her back....bad