id have to say its time to update
well, not to much has been going on lately. i got 2 B's on my exams if anyone wants to know. but school is going good and i really like too.
stacy and i drove around for like 2 hours tonight and we had a talk. weve been in a "rut" but she says were out of it. i believe her, but what if were not and it keeps growing, ya know? its kinda like when you study for an exam, but you find out you didnt study enough...kinda like that. but here, its like the problems fixed, but we didnt do enough to keep it away. i dunno well see how it works out.
and then she brought up the idea of her leaving!!! im thinking to myself "where did this come from??" now im scared. b/c before with us it was, were never leave each other, i still wont leave her. but now she says, "what if..." im telling ya, somethings not right here. thats a big step from saying well never leave, i still wont, to saying what if. now i dont think ive ever been so terrified in my life.
and then she brought up her depression. and i dont have a problem with this. i told her "i wanna help you.....but i can only do so much". what if thats not enough?? ya know.
when i put all this together and think about it all, it makes me think that im not good enough anymore. im starting to become that boring kid again.
i dunno well see what happens.
stacy and i drove around for like 2 hours tonight and we had a talk. weve been in a "rut" but she says were out of it. i believe her, but what if were not and it keeps growing, ya know? its kinda like when you study for an exam, but you find out you didnt study enough...kinda like that. but here, its like the problems fixed, but we didnt do enough to keep it away. i dunno well see how it works out.
and then she brought up the idea of her leaving!!! im thinking to myself "where did this come from??" now im scared. b/c before with us it was, were never leave each other, i still wont leave her. but now she says, "what if..." im telling ya, somethings not right here. thats a big step from saying well never leave, i still wont, to saying what if. now i dont think ive ever been so terrified in my life.
and then she brought up her depression. and i dont have a problem with this. i told her "i wanna help you.....but i can only do so much". what if thats not enough?? ya know.
when i put all this together and think about it all, it makes me think that im not good enough anymore. im starting to become that boring kid again.
i dunno well see what happens.